Hi all

WOW, I must share some joy....... been sharing mainly sobs so far.....

WH seems sincerely appreciative I gave him permission to watch WCup with the guys......I been telling WH go enjoy & that I trust his conscience will not allow unwanted companion in the fun.... I can feel the appreciation in my bones, in our interactions

WH assures me IT'S water under the bridge....... he's been giving such assurances consistently this week

Yes, I will tread with caution but truly feel victorious joy, a moment of happiness laced with caution surely wont hurt........

It's been about 2 weeks that I dont talk about OW or ask if NC has been broken. WH's the one who "owns up" (not sure if it's cos WH suspects I've been checking into his mails, I just see subject but dont open mails).

Since WH last told me he contacted OW re biz, I still never ask or interrogate re frequency etc ....... I just been stressing on my pain......matter-of-factly......and the jigsaw puzzle......

Difference between now & Plan A is : - in Plan A, I feel I had to "grin & bear with it" cos despite me telling WH my agony, there was tremendous emotional abuses...... Now, after I told WH "I dont need u" dry-eyed, and that I use more graphics to share my misery, WH appears to have some slight empathy........ a breakthrough or WH been attending acting classes? I embrace with caution

WH assures most sincerely, stressing he now understands my tormenting imaginations ......... we are going to a pub & watch tomorrow's England's match.....

More EN met, less LB of late......... maybe patience does pay off eventually.... slowly....... maybe........ but even if it does not eventually, at least I can say I tried ALL

But I will always remember pep says A is not over yet......

will remind myself this is no recovery yet, maybe just a very peaceful, nonconfrontational journey towards it....
False hopes is soul-destroying, will remind myself not to go there.... any & all well-meaning reminders welcome

Last but not least, since I am doing fine, you helpful folks can go help more needy cases...... just scream at me if you need to deal me any shot of reality checks.

I will update all you who have been my beacon in the dark ........ over time........

Meantime, will continue to check into MB & read up on boundary-setting, Plan B prep, etc.......

trulyendofworldnomore