LA,
Its good to see you also! We are going to be in Iraq a little longer (2-3 weeks), which is not so fun. FWW/WW was almost in tears when I told her I might be late getting back. She says she just wants to start working on us.
FWW has been sick the last 4 days and hasn't really been to talkative or up on sending emails like she has been the last 3 weeks. I can't stop wondering if OM has made contact.
Anyways, back to your post. Once I lose trust for someone, I have never managed to put trust in that person again before. Also, as long as I have certain truths that I know and she is lying about, how can I realistically trust anything she says?
I want to share my feelings, but I don't want to rock the boat from over here. I told her this and she said that I would feel better if I talked to her about it. She then reminded me that we need to communicate to get past this.
I guess I just have to tell her that I need the whole truth truth from her, with no questions or coaxing from me to heal. I have caught her in lies that she doesn't even know I know. This is all stuff I want to bring up at home, not from over here.
As far as the sharing goes, I have started to pull myself back from her again in defense. When I thought it was ovr it was easy to share, but now that she seems to be back its hard b/c I don't want to let myself feel let down again.
I have gotten very good at listening and repeating. It has increased our understanding of each other alot, but it is sometimes annoying to me. I only use it b/c it works very well, I'll get used to it.
I should be home in 55 days if all goes well. The original count would have had me at 26 <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/frown.gif" alt="" /> Oh well, thats the way the army rolls.
Have a good one all!! And thank you for the continued advice and support!!
