It will serve as an inspiration...
Do I want to be SadMommy or ShimmyGrrl?
Today I chose ShimmyGrrl!
Sounds uplifting to me.
Yep, that does give me some pride. Glad to be an inspiration, even when I'm not feeling very inspired myself.
MSA, the counseling session was OK. Probably not as helpful as it could have been, b/c DD had to come. Her sitter couldn't watch her most of the day yesterday b/c of back-to-school orientation for her two children. She was so wellbehaved during the session, just sat there and played quietly by herself, that I took her to see the doggies at the pet store as a reward. She LOVES going to the pet store and talking to all the animals. Not that I would ever buy a dog from a pet store, but she likes to visit.
The counselor and I talked about my anger/resentment I have towards Mom, for choosing the life she did... leaving Dad, moving away to live with a guy she met on the internet, and all the other bad stuff. Believe it or not, I felt better when the session was up.
Today was a big day. Mom's life insurance deposit went through today, so I paid off the lawyer and my credit card. Paid back what I borrowed from DD's college account in the fall to come up with the retainer. AND bought a new computer, which I have wanted to do for so long because my old one has been messed up for a while. Gotta love sales tax holiday weekend! I just got it set up... my one indulgence from the insurance check.
My next move is to repay my grandma the $500 she gave me when XH first left. That'll leave me a nice sum in my savings account, just waiting to be a downpayment on a house. I'm feeling pretty good about some things... first time in a long time I've felt comfortable financially.
XH and OW married 1/6/07. Ugh!