In some ways there are times I wish he could have felt the depth of my pain, but I have to say I wouldn't wish that on my worst enemy so why would I wish it on the one that I love so much? Two wrongs don't make a right and all that mush, there are times I would wish him to know it but then my reason overtakes my feelings and knows that it's just not right to wish that kind of pain on ANYONE. We had a long talk about 2 months into recovery where I told him that he could never conceive the depth of my pain, that he would NEVER understand how hurt I was and still am in some ways. The pain ebbs away, the thoughts pop up once in awhile about the two of them but I am a much stronger person than he and I am the one that could handle this much better, God only gives us what we can handle!<P>------------------<BR>Chick's<P>You won't see things until your ready to not be blind!<BR>