I haven't used this ID for a LONG time.
I am surprised it still works what with all the forum changes.

Some of this information is posted below on the thread started by Owl to IWRA (It Won't Rain Always) from an email I sent to 2BNormal and Cardsonly.

But I felt I needed to come clean for all to see.
Especially Just Learning. I want him to know of my deceit.
I feel so sad and so sorry, I just can't tell you how much I regret all of this...THE LIES! THE AFFAIRS! ALL OF IT!

When I posted as Sarie, what I said was true. (Except I am not a RN, I am a trained Hospice volunteer, that is how I met OM, when he was sick and dying in a nursing home.) I always argued that I am a nice lady. NICE WOMEN have affairs...look at the FWW on this MB, nearly all them are kind and nice ladies. (The affair is what is not nice.)

I was such an arrogant WW when I came to MB. I fought back of my love for OM and not wanting to tell my husband.

I felt backed into a corner, so instead of just stopping posting, I came back as Blessed Time, a PRETEND betrayed spouse. I had seen how much respect a betrayed spouse received, versus a WS and especially a wondering spouse that wasn't anyways near recovered. It was WRONG of me to do this, sick! (I wonder if there are others on MB PRETENDING just for attention, there possibly are.) I hope not!

I didn't give too much 'advice', kept it light and posted a lot about computer problem solutions. Tempest had my post about how to stay logged on in the top place for a long time...I didn't ask her to. I was even told off by a poster that we didn't need a computer 'teacher' on MB. I wrote Tempest and asked her to take it off of sticky.

Well, anyway, what I said about my husband being unfaithful as Blessed Time was a LIE, he has been faithful to me and our marriage for all of the 42 years. We started dated when I was 17 and he was 18....We married at 18 and 19.

Just Learning always thought my LT affair was because of the death of our 18 year old son. I really don't think so, but it might have been a part of why I needed extra attention, affection and friendship, to fill this void. I don't know. When this OM, married this old classmate he met (after many years of our friendship) that is when we mutually agreed to go no contact. I didn't tell my husband about him for an entire year AFTER the OM met this new lady and No Contact was agreed upon. By then, the emotional attachment I had for him had mostly worn off and so when I told my H, it was without the gaa gaa love for OM that Sarie had when posting on MB.

The problem was, several months after confessing, our son in law was killed leaving behind three young children. Again, I had this terrible void. It had been 20 years since our son had died. I had met a classmate of the above OM's at a school reunion and we started emailing. This became another EA with two times meeting when he was back home. (He lives in another state.)
Keep in mind, I am 60 and both OM's are going to be 70 this Fall.

That is when I signed in as It Won't Rain Always. And I when I quit posting, since I was still in contact with OM, Cards asked me to email her as she has something to tell me about herself that she did not want to post on MB, 2B also shared her email address and we became great friends and they helped me to break free of this friendship with this OM...he too, has found a lady to be his companion. (Both OM were single but as I said in Owl's post, I am not single, I am very married with a wonderful family and lots of grandchildren that I adore.)

I probably really do need some counseling to try and figure out why I have turned to these other men (nice men by the way) to fill my emotional needs.

I feel terrible for having deceived you at MB when I posted as Blessed Time.(and Silly Girl) I posted 4 times as summersky, just as a diversion. What I posted as Sarie and It Won't Rain Always was true. I wonder if others have more than one ID. (Nothing is new under the sun.) I think I sometimes can CATCH people that are not telling the truth, like if they say they told their spouse, sometimes I can see through them.) It takes a liar to know a liar!

In all areas of my life except these affairs, I am always truthful. Ain't that a crock. I guess a liar doesn't lie
all the time. WHAT A DEAL!

And when I defend people that I feel are being bullied, that really has nothing to do with whether I have told my husband of my on line affair. I still don't like bullying and attacking. I don't like 2 x 4's on hurting people as that pushes them down farther yet. I know this is true because I was 2 x 4'd when I posted as Sarie and it in no way helped me to stop...it was JL's kind and caring words that I remember to this day. I think a hug and a kick in the pants works by far the best.

Yes, Just Learning's caring posts helped the most. I remember him saying SARIE COME HOME...how I wanted to come home in my heart to that young naive virgin girl that thought when I got married, it would be for a lifetime of faithfulness. I ruined that big time.

But finally at age 60, I am ready to live a pure life serving God. During all this time, God did not abandon me. I was saved as a young girl, how I disappointed HIM, is unfathomable, but he kept loving me unconditionally and kept calling me back home. My husband has that same unconditional love. He is a wonderful man, all I have left to confess is this on line affair and 2B has been urging me to tell him. (Even though her husband wishes she had not told him of her affairs.) So I am sincerely thinking of telling and coming clean about this as well.

Again, MB, what can I say? I am sorry is NOT ENOUGH. Don't worry, I won't come back with another ID...I may post my sordid story on a Christian forum and see what they advise me. A Special apology to 2BNormal, Cardsonly, (I am SO sorry for not telling you all ths in the beginning) Owl (for defending and believing in me) and Bob Pure (I told him the critical names he was calling his wife were wrong and she would be herself again and he would regret calling her these obscene names on MB) I think he does have 'his loving wife' back.) But that wasn't for ME to give him THIS 'advice'.

I wrote my two friends last night and said if my betrayal, my lies, make them feel duped, can they even imagine how their husbands felt when they found out about their wife's lies and deceit?

If they feel sick about MY betrayal, just think about how their husbands felt having unfaithful wives with other men. And for their husbands (and mine) to be able to trust them again, just as they don't trust me now, is BIG....BS that forgive are beyond Gold Metal people. My husband is a remarkable man for being able to forgive me and hang onto my good qualities. He must really love me. And I love him. Even during my affairs, I never stopped loving my husband and always knew he was the one I wanted to grow old with....and we are getting there! (Most of you reading are a lot younger.)

I don't know if I will respond on this thread. I may come back if there are any questions but really I would rather this thread DIE and you help other people that are starting threads and NEED your help. I just want to STOP the deceit and be 100 % truthful with MB.

IWRA... You really need some professional help. There are many good counselors and facilities in your area. Since you have told so many lies and no one will know if this email is an extension of those lies, how do you imagine your future contacts on MB going???



Are you capable of seeing how your thinking in this quote is so very hurtful and "off?"



Again, some more disrespectful and clearly pathological thinking here. Why do you feel the need to think others have sunk to your level of dishonesty and deceit? Does it make you feel better to have company???



Does this mean your H has been told everything?? Because that is not what you have characterized in the past? Can you really find enough honesty in yourself to answer this question?


Please seek the help that you need. It most certainly is not to be found in an internet forum. In fact, from what I know of you... perhaps it is time to throw out your computer to avoid some obvious temptations.

Sarie,

coming clean is a good thing.
Do the same thing with your H.

Own your mistakes - maybe there are others here on MB with lies and multiple aliases, so what?
You have to right your own wrongs.
You are the one who has to look into the mirror.
Others have to do that - for themselves.

Bring out the truth.
And yes, get counseling to support you so you'll not fall back into the trap of running away from the real problems with fantasies.

missing a few names on the thread title

I also posted as a man, trying to express what I thought
a BH would feel. I tried to sound 'stern' yet forgiving!

Celt and Zippidy doo dah.

I need HELP, more than I can receive from a forum,
medc is correct. I really do need to see a counselor to
understand why I would do such a thing.

SO DISHONEST. I am SO sorry from the bottom of my heart.

"SORRY" is not a big enough word for my betrayal on
MB and to my friends that emailed such wonderful
friendship and encouragement.

Now I think my confessions are ALL OUT IN THE OPEN.

Every single one! If I missed any, it was not intentional.

Abe Lincoln said when you lie you have to have a good memory.
Like the saying: "We learn kindness from the unkind."
One of my favorites, I posted under two of my ID's!
Good catch Pep. (Or Mel, I forget)

I also like:
"It is never too late to start over."

But I will not, I promise, will not start with a new ID.
You would catch me anyway, by the way I write.

still missing some current names

"we learn about lies from liars"

I put 'summersky' in my first post.

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you confessed

then you didn't

then you had a PA
then you didn't

you are so ..............................

LOL

Pep

.... and

I thought you were turning over a new leaf?

common ... fess up ALL of them

WHYNOT?

Pep

There is no more.
That is it.
What ID's are you referring to?
Have Justuss check my IP number with
the posters you are thinking of.

Why do I not believe this now?


I don't remember your late son. But I don't think that was it. I think it's the pathological liar in you that needed the extra attention. It wasn't a void at all, it was a simple addiction 2 attentioin that made you do the things you've done - for a lifetime now.


I don't believe you.


I don't believe this. The "void" wasn't created by your son in law's death (assuming you had a son in law), it was your affection addiction that needed feeding.


And this needs 2 be kept in mind why?


DUH!!!


Anybody with a conscience would feel terrible if they'd done what you did. Can you give me a compelling reason why I (or anyone here) should believe your statement that you were telling the truth as Sarie and IWRA?


I'm also Qfwfq (formerly T-Zero). I've certainly made no secret of that (and those who remember when I started posting as Q, know why I did). I don't see the draw 2 coming to an anonymous forum and lying 2 people who don't even know you. Doesn't make sense, UNLESS it's the LIAR who benefits somehow by doing so.


I hear another lame excuse for bad behavior in this statement, which otherwise makes no sense in this context.


I don't believe you.


I agree, it has nothing 2 do with what you perceive as bullying, it has everything 2 do with your continued lies 2 your H (assuming you ever had one).


Good luck. You'll need it.


And when you do (assuming he exists) and your addiction/void still needs 2 be filled (because apparently this wonderful, unconditionally loving H hasn't been enough all this time), will you have yet another A that you'll be debating on here whether 2 confess when you're in your 70's?


I don't believe you.


Maybe you'll be more honest with them. But I doubt it.


There's more missing here.


You're just now feeling empathy for them, at 60? (Hm... weren't you in your 60's when you last posted as Sarie a couple years ago?).


This still doesn't "ring true" Sarie.


For me, it's probably 2 late. But I'm just one person. Maybe others will get something from this. I've got 2 much other stuff 2 focus on.

-ol' 2long

Sarie, the only reason you are "coming clean" is because you were busted. And no, you are not a "nice lady." You are a mean son of a ****** who leads a life of deception and manipulation. If I hadn't caught you, you would not be here. You would just make up new names to attack people in the most cowardly manner you could. And I have been targeted by almost every one of your names.

You have deceived and hurt many, many people for many years. Here and in your personal life. You have not defended people from "bullies," you have defended your lying stinking WAYWARD AGENDA for years while assaulting others when it suited you. Was BobPure a "bully" when you assaulted him when he was in the depths of despair? No, he was almost suicidal when you tried to "set him straight."

I went back and read your posts, Sarie, and your AGENDA is always the same: AFFAIR SUPPORT, ie: MISLEAD THE NEW PEOPLE into accommodating the affair ["dont' expose" or "its ok to allow your H to talk to the OW on the phone right in front of you! Don't interrupt the affair!"] and BASH and TEAR UP anyone who dares CRITICIZE a sleazy affair or a WS. That has been your MO and that is how I sniffed you out. In short, you have learned NOTHING here in YEARS. NOTHING.

You say you like kindness.

The only reason you like "kindness" is because you are seeking ENABLERS. "Kindness" to you is complete avoidance of the truth. That is why 2x4's would never work with you. Since NOTHING will EVER WORK against your will, you only pursue enablers. You are here shopping for enablers and sadly, you have FOUND a few useful idiots.

I hope that you have the decency to leave this forum after all the deceit and trauma you have caused here. I doubt that you do, but just know this board cannot help you and you are not fit to help anyone here. You need professional, psychological help, something that you cannot get here.

IWRA... I don't really know you and all that is going on here, but I just wanted to add my feelings on your "confession".

It all seems too easy to me.

I grew up with the need for acceptance and other peoples affirmation. I would lie to get out of trouble. Being in trouble and others thinking less of me was worse than my own integrity being broken.
I know this now and catch myself still falling into this pattern sometimes... luckily it is not too often anymore.

When I found myself in a situation where I knew I was cornered without an escape route, often my next step was to quickly confess and even "discipline" myself. There was one time when I was supposed to be a lead role in a drama... my school marks were down and I knew I would be in some trouble. Before I showed my report card, I called the drama director and told her I had to quit. I figured being proactive in taking responsibility would make everything ok. The intention and motivation was all wrong. I was still manipulating.

...just my thoughts.

I hope you do get some help. You are worth it.

Shaden

Next time, maybe IWRA could stand for

"I won't remember anything."

-ol' 2long

BWHAAAAAAAAAAAAA

Here is what Ms "Nice" wrote to BobPure just a few weeks after his D-Day when he was in the depths of despair when he asked that his wife stop seeing the OM at karate.


http://www.marriagebuilders.com/ubbt/sho...part=1&vc=1


This is coupled with fly by attacks on him by her ZippidyDoDah alias to bolster her assualt.

This is just a typical example of how "nice" Sarie really is. About as "nice" as a rattlesnake.

Hi MelBelle

how long until a new member attacks you?

Pep