Mimi

At the end of the day, I have not expressly said, "lg was/is feeling things for sister that no brother in law should have" to my mom. And I dont think I will. She knows there is trouble afoot but I dont want to tell her any more.

But beyond that I think in the past two days hope is slowly, painfully dawning. Everyday there seems to be a few steps forward and a step or two backwards. I can see lg is actually trying.

The day before yesterday was good in some spots but we had one big bad part to our day. We went on a walk together and it ended in lots of hurt feelings and me feeling like a piece of cr*p. But yesterday was good. Not stellar but good. and for right now I am content with that. went out to dinner together, he came ot work with me to help me out, spent an hour just talking. So I think I certainly met his recreation needs, and he met my "don't bring up my sister" needs. and my "be gentle with my heart" needs. (thats subposed to be a sort of ironic joke.) Anyway we are slowly painfully moving forward.

I did end up confessing the whole story to a friend of mine. She was SHOCKED. We were up until this point the couple everyone wanted to be like. Close, secure, madly in love. She is worried for me and my mental safety/health. It was nice to talk to someone who is 100% concerned with my best interests.

Until latter
dc