Great! I think that it will be perfect for you right now!

I had a hard lesson to learn, you may remember:

Our fear is greater than reality! YOU will do great!

I'm looking forward to hearing what you have to say about this book. I'm realy excited to be sharing it with you!
I mean I could jump for joy!

YOU have made my bad! Thank you!

Rin- I just got back from the library and they didn't have it in so they are getting it from another library so I won't get it until Friday. <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/mad.gif" alt="" />

While I was at the library WH called to let me know about another job interview that he set up for thursday. He started a job today and he is hating it. Then before I could back to the office he called again and asked me if I would do him a favor he wanted me to pick him up a carton of cigerettes(sp?) thats the first time in a very long time that he asked me for anything.

Sounds like he's trying to move back in on you...

what is he doing for you?

Watch your step here...I would hate to see you in the sitch I am...

Heck...I would like WH to move out but I can't force him...I'm not even going to go there...

One of the first questions I'm going to ask him is what is he going to do to protect our M. I want a NC letter, MC with Steve Harley but if he doesn't want Steve then we will have to find and MC that believes in MB. I won't have an MC like the last one that told me to get over it because I was the one that is in WH heart and so what he screwed someone else. Yes this is what she said to me. Steve H. told me she should lose her license for saying that.

OY! That sounds like a shrunken-headed-shrink to me!!!

Sounds like you've got a hold on what you NEED from WH in order to continue with any bits of recovery...anything less, and, well, you've got your answer...

WH just left. We didn't talk he said his first day at the new job took a toll on him. In some ways I'm not suprised that he didn't want to talk. Just want something to happen one way or the other.


See you guys tomorrow

Hey Rin i got the book i'm on chapter 9 I really like it.

How was the book? There's another one after that one called Mountain of Spices, also great...I'm nearing the end!

I'm only here to share this book with you but I will say that I'm doing well! <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/smile.gif" alt="" />

I'm still reading but I really do like it. It's making me really think about my own fears and how silly they are I no God is right beside me.

Last night I had a bad dream about losing my wedding rings. I woke up feeling really bad and fearful. Then all of a sudden I felt great peace. GOD IS GOOD.

Rin I'm glad you are doing well I know you will do what is best for your family. I will keep you in my prayers.

I need to vent to you guys so I don't lose it on WH.

Last week was going really good. He took me out to dinner on my b-day that was weds. Thursday he calls and tells me his Mom was in the hospital so he wouldn't be coming over but he would be over Friday. On Fri. he calls and tells me that he has to pick her up from the hospital so he couldn't come over but he would be over Sat. I called him Sat. about 6pm to find out if he was coming over he said he couldn't because MIL was running a fever of 101 and he didn't want to leave her but of course he will be over Sunday. I work 5 hours on sunday and I get home at 5pm YS tells me that he tried to call WH 2 times and he never called back so I called him, he didn't answer or call me back didn't hear from him at all yesterday.

None of this makes any sense to me. Is this normal for someone that is going through withdrawl?

It is just so strange he was the one that was making all the forward movement and now that has just stopped.

What should I do?

Concentrate on yourself...you know that he is dealing with your MIL and she is sickly...

Pray for her...

Let go and let God...things will be as they should...have faith...

Should you want to talk to me...you can find my email address here...

Take care and I have faith in you...I am very blessed! <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/wink.gif" alt="" />

(Sorry for the TJ.....)

Hi, ((((((((Rin!)))))))
Glad to see you still lurking. Thinking about you!!


-AmI.

I refuse to post on my life...There are a few people that I would like to talk to like you AmI...I miss you! you can also find my email address...I came to check on MF and her reading...

It's a great Book...I recommend it to you also...

"Hind's Feet in High Places"

Talked to WH yesterday. He sounds pretty down I hope its because he's in NC with OW.( thats not a mean thing to say is it?) LOL

I did ask him if he still wanted to talk he told me that his head is not clear enough yet. ( does any one know what this might mean.)

His Mom is doing better, she is still running a fever which is strange because shes been on antibiotics for 5 days now.

one more thing.

Last week he told me about applying for a job at the water district. I told him that I knew the CEO. So he asked me to call and put in a good word for him, something like " my husband applied for such in such job could you HR pull his app. Then yesterday he told me to go down to the shop that worked on my car last week that my husband said xyz.

The reason I bring this up is because he keeps using the words my husband.

I'm I reading to much into this? These are not the only times he has done this there has been others.

I think that your H has alot on his plate right now...I would be very concerned if it were my mother...

That alone, compounded with the job thing is a great deal of stress to be dealing with...

It seems to me that HE DOES want to be your H...It seems that he does love you and cares very much for you...

I know that it is hard for me to admitted when I AM wrong...or have been wrong...I would recommend taking things as they are...face valus right now until some things settle down...be still and breathe...

It's possible that he needs a little more time to catch up...

Have faith...truth in the God of your understanding...

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