awwwwwwwwwwww, I could never pop a cap on his [censored], he is too cute! **snort** <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/grin.gif" alt="" />

[color:"red"]If FWSs knew what was lurking in the minds and hearts of their BSs most of the time they'd never sleep unarmed. <~~~ Noodle
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hey ... who gave you permission to discuss MY (previous) sig line without my permission???

huh? <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/wink.gif" alt="" />

I read Noodle's comment
and it went *zing* in my head

because it is just too true

I recall restless nights next to my snoring H just months after D day and hating his very GUTS for being able to sleep while my head was exploding in pain

and so the freshly betrayed has wicked wicked thoughts

some of them REALLY not nice
chainsaw massacre level of not-nice
put some poop in your shoes not-nice

and it was just too funny for Noodle to put that raw honesty just right OUT THERE for all the world to see

this has NOTHING to do with YOU Pat ... unless it is Froz thinking the carnage <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/grin.gif" alt="" />

this is the BS admitting they own a dark place themselves ...it's not all light & roses & tap shoes ... not all-the-the-time is the BS wondering ~~~> "how I can meet my FWH's ENs today"

sometimes it's lethally judgmental
gruesome murderous thoughts
and these thought are NOT pleasant to the thinker <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/tongue.gif" alt="" />

but.... it's not applicable to other WS's ... just our own ... and there is a pretty short shelf life for these thoughts ... because eventually they round out to "But, I love this man"

I haven't thought about putting poop in his shoes for months and months

<img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/grin.gif" alt="" /> <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/grin.gif" alt="" /> <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/grin.gif" alt="" /> <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/grin.gif" alt="" />

Pep <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/pfft.gif" alt="" />

he's cute alright ... but not THAT cute

<img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/grin.gif" alt="" /> <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/pfft.gif" alt="" /> <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/grin.gif" alt="" /> <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/pfft.gif" alt="" />

I had this thought that if I killed the OW..I would be relieved of this nightmare..

(It died. I think my anger shrivelled it.)


TA

I had this thought that if I killed the OW..I would be relieved of this nightmare..

You get it..if she didn't exist anymore..it would solve the problem

A large part of him was GUILTY..still is..so he was almost waiting and expecting me to LASH OUT at him..PULL OUT THE KITCHEN KNIFES <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/smile.gif" alt="" />..but I didn't..he felt he DESERVED it...

For my H, my EMOTIONAL CONTAINMENT during early recovery increased even more the huge amount of RESPECT for me that was established while working the MB PLANS...

I found that I was ENRAGED even moreso at the FOW because she never seemed to have any REMORSE...

[from believer]

Well, I'll leave this one to Noodle.

But I do see some truth in what you write. One of my biggest heroines here is Aussies Wife. She and her husband have recovered, and even brought Mikey into the world. She is always around to help WW's, giving excellent support and advice. Still she beats herself up for past errors.

At some point, the past is the past. I forget if you are a Christian or not, but the Lord tells us that our sins will be forgiven, and forgotten as if they had never happened.