2:15pm Pacific Time

UGH!! The last hour STUNK! My exH on the east coast keeps trying to IM me, and I DON'T WANT TO HEAR FROM HIM!! He's going to the mountains of upstate NY to visit some friends of ours whom I really liked, and HE gets to see them and I don't because he's a lying, cheating A$$ who's now trying to act all friendly with me, as if losing a 15 year marriage to chase skirts is alright!

I AM ANGRY!

I am angry that he takes it all so cavalierly!
I am angry that he thinks I give a rat's behind!
I am angry that he won't leave me alone to live my life!
I am angry that he broke promises and gets off scott free!

But mostly I'm angry that the network at my DH's office is down so I can't talk to him and mellow out.

I'm looking forward to the NEXT hour. This last one was no good! I am going to eat more chocolate almonds and have some hot chocolate.

Still--how was your hour??


~~CJ

Hey guys thanks for checking on me...
It's 5:20pm EST here.

Our day was pretty gray and foggy. Althoug it was 50 degrees out yohoo.

Lets see the last 2 hours I spent with my BF and we walked 3 miles. It felt so good to be outside.

No flowers blooming here though... I stil have a foot of snow in my yard.

No contact at all with you know who. And I don't care. Srill thought about him today and still miss him. But it doesn't hurt like before.

My BF and I yaked all the way. About prom dresses... she spent 300.00 dollars on her DD dress <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/shocked.gif" alt="" />

I promised I wouldn't tell her SIL, but you guys are ok.

My DD is at SB practice and DS is at a friends. We'll be eating supper at almost 8pm when DD gets home. Welcome to softball season <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/crazy.gif" alt="" />

Been thinking about things I'd like to do to my house once everything is settled. May look at Penny's catalog for new bedspread, curtain for my living room, new shower curtain (first I have to pull out the shower doors though.

Pick out pain color for DS room and my bedroom.

WH let the house kind of go over the last 1-2 years. Everything else was priority. Well not at my house this year.

Gonna put my boots on and go on the back deck and get the gas grill going.
Oh boy I hope it has gas. Now how do you change the tank <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/mad.gif" alt="" />

CJ I've been curious... there is a bunch of alphabet in your sig line, what does it all mean?

Bugs,
I'm sure you have alot to talk about at IC... sometimes I feel like I'm my IC soap opera... with all the dirt going on in my life <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/blush.gif" alt="" />

Check in....ps didn't wear goddes undies today. Will tomorrow. Usually after 3 days on at my job I'm junk that next day.

CJ... don't let the dumba$$ get to you.

Still

ROFL!=rolling on the floor laughing

Oh, still! First, it's good to hear from you. Each hour with NC is a good hour! Second, you're right--there is a lot of "alphabet" in my signature. Here is an interpretation:


In my life, still, I have been married twice. My first marriage, I was the Betrayed Spouse (13 times actually!! :0 ) I am currently 44 years old. My Myers-Briggs personality type is INFP which means Introverted, iNtuitive, Feeler, Perceiver. I'm a pretty emotional gal--I love people contact--and I see thousands of possibilities in every situation. I have a Dear Son who is 20 years old and a Dear Daughter who is 17 years old.


My exH (first marriage) was physically, emotionally, and mentally abusive. He is diagnosed Rapid Cycling Bipolar, Generalized Anxiety Disorder, and Borderline Personality Disorder. He was/is a serial cheater. His Myers-Briggs personality type is the EXACT OPPOSITE of mine in every way: Extroverted, Sensor, Thinker, Judger. That means he craves attention, Analyzes everything, and sees only one "right" answer. Our divorce was final May 23, 2003.


My new Dear Husband is MUCH BETTER!!! We were married March 31, 2006 (so our first anniversary is in a few days!). He's 49 years old, and his Myers-Briggs personality type is MUCH closer to mine: Introverted, iNtuitive, Thinker, Perceiver. We think and act and speak very much the same language--he just tends to analyze things and I tend to feel them. He is the father of five children, and they are 26 years old, 23 years old, 19 years old, 13 years old and 11 years old. His ex-wife has Narcissistic Disorder and has basically become a runaway WW. All of the kids live with us!! Well...no...some have moved out (26, 23, 20) but those who do live at home, live with us full-time.

And that's the story of my life and I'm sticking to it!!

Your faithful friend,


CJ

P.S. DH heard that I had a crummy last hour, so he sent me an email and an ecard! Isn't he a sweetie!!

I'm an INTP. Maybe I should add that to my signature.

Great day, Still!

CJ,

Wow thanks for the clarifiaction. I've been wondering about that for along time... can you tell I lead an exciting life.

My WH sounds alot like your XH... except there has never been any real physical abuse. All my wounds are in my heart and soul.

I'm interested in that Myers Briggs Personality type. I may go and look that up later. It'll keep me busy.

One year anniversay that's wonderful.... gonna eat the top of your wedding cake <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/grin.gif" alt="" />

In the next hour I'm thinking of starting my spagetti sauce for tomoorows dinner. It's always better after one day.

Still

Myers Briggs is fascinating stuff. I have always been interested in learning more about myself and how I "work." There are some free watered-down versions of Myers Briggs (other personality profiles) online. You can also take the real test online but have to pay for "interpretation."

I'll check it out... maybe I'll find out I'm a hachet wielding alien murderer.

Just joking. It does sound very interesting though.

Still

still,

You don't sound like the ax-wielding alien murderer type. More like arsenic and old lace, I'd say! <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/pfft.gif" alt="" />

Okay--now back to the serious station. We are having WAAAAAAAAAAAAY too much silliness here. How am I supposed to continue my accounting work with all this FUN erupting around me?


~~CJ

P.S. SDguy--an INTP huh? Two of my stepsons are male INFPs, and they are both musicians and artists! My new DH is an INTP and I love the way you guys THINK about everything! You're mildly hard to talk to though. <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/pfft.gif" alt="" />

I have to laugh at the arsenic and lace old lady... I'm a pharmacist. Oops maybe to much info.

To bad I don't even know how to get arsenic... only the legal drugs.

Still

My company has a DEA license for controlled substances, but I don't think aresenic is on our list, only CYANIDE!!! <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/eek.gif" alt="" />

We don't have any of those fun drugs where I work.... something about making people well and all that.

Still

Yipeee there is gas in the grill.... first cookout of the season and I didn't even have to put on my boots.

Still

Okay guys having an anxiety attack... WH is on the phone with DS.

Okay I can do this ...breathe, breathe.

Still

Sorry I missed out on the fun today!



Still - what, if anything, happened with the phone call?

Let me guess - you sat there. You remembered to breathe in and out. Eventually, the panic subsided and you are through it! Right?

Hoping you are OK!

how did it go?

Yes I got through it. Still feeling a little anxious cause he should be calling for DS soon this am.

But I'll breathe in and out. Funny I don't remember feeling this anxious about phone calls before.

Oh well this will get easier with time. He honored my request but i believe it was due to being a night with the ho.

Shake my head and stop focusing on them.

When I went for a walk with my BF yesterday she works with someone that she introduced me to that had gone through the same thing. Her H left her for a 20 something massage parlor worker. He was 50 something. Her XH is miserable with this girl (she uses drugs has Hep C) Well she sld the house they had built and bought smaller. Her realtor said I have someone I want you to meet. Needless to say she is in love and giddy like a teenager. It makes me happy because she went through alot with her X.

I guess there is hope out there if things don't work out.

So actually it's been a day and half with no contact.

Still

Still,

Congrats! You made it through it!! Pat yourself on the back and think about how much Stronger you are now!

Your future is FULL to the brim and overflowing with HOPE,,, no matter what the outcome of your M!! You are a bright, wonderful, intelligent and loving woman with a heart of gold!!

Hope you have a great day today!

Bugs,

Thanks for the encouragement... it's nice to get. Maybe one of my EN. One that wasn't being met by WH.

Yes today is going to be a good day. I did get through the phone call this morning. And I plan to be either out or busy when he comes to pick up DS tonight. But will have the smell of homemade spagetti and meatballs through the house. And he can eat his heart. There will be none for him.

I'm going to check your thread for your update.

Go get them today at work...home today work tomorrow and Friday.

Still

Ummmm,,, even on my BS diet, homemade spaghetti and meatballs sounds great! I love a house filled with the armoma of good Italian cooking!

Hang on to those little vicotries,,,, Like NO MEATBALLS for HIM! I know we often think they are silly, but those things seem to help get me thru sometimes! <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/smile.gif" alt="" />

Hope you day is going well!

Bugs,

Yes the house smells great... from what I understand from OWH is she didn't really ever cook, And her SIL said every night they were at his parents eating dinner.

Now I'm not the greatest cook and we did eat out alot due to the kids schedules. We had hotdogs alot during ball season... softball and baseball games can go on forever even with the mercy rule.

One meatball did get away and rolled under the fridge... grabbed it before my dear Maddie burned her mouth. Thought about that being the meatball I would give WH. Nah Maddie deserves the dropped meatball more than him.

Today is going okay trying not to dwell to much on him. It's hard but I'm trying to keep busy.

Talked to my mom this morning and she asked if anything new,,,, and that just cut right through my heart that no nothing had changed.

Otherwise going well... hope your day is going well also...stay strong bugs your doing great.

Still