(((((MF)))))
We've wasted a whole year sweeping it under the rug, and I/we could have been so much further along in this recovery process. But I let him lead the recovery and that was a huge mistake. HUGE. I own that.
mf, don't think of it as time wasted....think of it as time spent learning valuable lessons about yourself and each other. change hurts, but you made a choice, an important one by saying I wont accept the status quo. and deciding for yourself that you deserve better, more from a M.
Yeah, it's not what I wanted at all, but I also don't want to keep on in this M where I don't feel safe to really share what's going on inside of me. I haven't felt safe to do that in months, and when I tried explaining it to him, he didn't understand.
I hear you! loud and clear! I feel exactly the same way! FWH was not doing anything to help you get past this...now you have decided you need to heal, with or without him. it was his choice not to be a part of your recovery, your choice to decide to get healthy..feel better again despite him being stuck in a place he doesn't want to move from.
mf...please keep posting, if this really is your only support system, you are going to need it. what about friends...coworkers...keep busy...get a massage...family that can be your sounding board...how about IC?
I have felt much more calm and peaceful in plan B. able to refocus energy back on myself. It is nice to be able to just feel what you are feeling without having to pretend to be 'ok' for someone else. keep reaching out. you can do this
