Thanks Bugs, I'm OK

Nipples a little sore from all those hugs though

IHC,

Yup, and nothing you write is ever lame, except for when you write that what you just wrote was lame, huh? I just confused myself, how lame?

PM,
I've got Primary Domicilary already. We're through with court. Good thing huh.

Rin,

Shudup, you're ruining it!

Ladies, do NOT be careful, Rin's talking jiberish.

Mama Bee,

THANK YOU SO MUCH, that was the best hug I've gotten in a while, next to my own mom that is.

So I'm feeling a bit better. I was in a HUGE rut today. I attempted to go to a divorce care meeting, but ended up in a singles ministry meeting. I figured what the he11. Only problem is everybody else was in their 50's and 60's. The ladies were giving me the eye anyway.

After the meeting I got the correct info so I'll try again tomorrow.

I thought I was through with this anger, but a weekend of triggers set me back off.

Posting and your replies REALLY helped, especially the hugs!

I'm much calmer now. I think I may bounce back quicker than I thought. I sure hope so.

THANK YOU SO MUCH EVERYBODY!!

It comes, and you deal with it. Chances are, it will come again, but hopefully not as strong. Either way, we'll be here.

Ditto....Super Dark guy! LOL

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BC

Out of the ash heap of history, the phoenix rises to the sun. And the ladies circle around like, er,


Back when I was single once again, I know I must have had the just got divorced look. Given that I was in a serious lacka state, I decided to see what I could do at a bar. Ouch, get me out of this place. So then I worked up to a social at a local church. It was in a high dollar part of town, so I get this vision of rich widows.

Ever feel like a steak at a Rotweiler convention? I mean I was a f r a i d ! I asked for directions to the men's room and I thought a couple of them were going to take me there and have a fight about which one was going to help me.

Beau, you have a sense of humor. This quality is prized above almost all else in a man by those women who fall in the real smart, high end of the bell curve category. They know it takes a sense of humor to live with THEM. So brother, you are about to enter into the lottery and "I guarantee" that you already got several checking you out and plotting and scheming and stuff to draw your number.

Be afraid Beau, be very afraid <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/wink.gif" alt="" />

Larry

He11 of a mental pic Larry.

How about an update.

Anger is controlled, the darkness is great, except for not being able to do shaddow puppets.

I've had a couple of interesting phone calls the last few days. One from SIL. She wants to come see DS this summer and would PREFER to stay at my house. She didn't have anything to even say about STBX. Last time she called she said she hadn't even heard from her since she was in the Hospital.

STBX's BF called today. Hasn't heard from STBX in weeks, basically since she entered in to A2 with OM2. BF recently talked to one of STBX's other close friends and she hasn't heard from her since this all started.

So it appears that STBX has gone dark with EVERYBODY. One of the things I noticed on her myspace page before I stopped checking was that ALL of her FRIENDS were people I'd never heard of.

Boy is she in deep. Everybody keeps asking me If she's been diagnosed or how's the counseling going or is there anything I can do to help her. My answer is always the same. I can't do anything for her unless she asks for it. I can't talk to her counselor, I can't get her help, my hands are completely tied. If this is what she wants then it's her choice and all I can do is step away to protect myself.

So at least I'm back to full blown PITY for STBX.

It's weird having her side calling me for updates. It's actually nice to know nobody's buying into her garbage which is the reason she's not talking to anybody.

So I'm doing good again, cuttin up, happy go lucky, and Movin On

Hey Beau,

I'm so sorry that I missed your call out for help with your anger and hate.

Once you really get dark, you will find that it is easier to separate out what you know with what you perceive. Your WW's actions are that of a WAYWARD, regardless of diagnosis otherwise. I'm sure any further mental incapacity just compounds the sitch.

She is a bad mother. Working on accepting this will be tough, and I mean really accepting it, as this will affect your son on a regular basis, so you will be dealing with her over the long haul. You must find a safe place in order to talk to your son openly about your WW.

You are incredible, and you will find your way. Being dark helps quite a bit in the way of healing, and your long exposure to a WS has kicked you in the 'jimmy' long enough. Getting off of her MySpace page and getting on with non-electonica life will help, too. Looking at that stuff serves no purpose now, as you have custody of your son. You can always tell you lawyer about her page and leave it at that. Let go, and move forward.

Come to the darkside....

SBD,

Thanks for checking up on me. Don't worry about missing out on this past weeks fun. You can use the break from all the drama around here.

I'm doing better. I avoid her like the plague and starting next week I want total darkness. I need to get a few things from her first and then talk to her about giving me time to heal. I've talked to her twice since last weekend and both times she tried to intiate conversation like we were buddies or something. I shut it down. I've kept our contact strictly to DS business. I do so well when I don't have to see or hear her. I'm looking foward to the peace.

Stop by anytime. I've got a lot going on this summer. I'm sure there will be plenty of cuttin up on here.

Thanks again.

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BC I feel we are the same, how easy our WW can create new lives from themselves, new friends with new past.

All my WW girlfriends are now my friends, I am actually taking 2 DD's and 2 DD's friends to Pirates of the Carribean tonight.

WW showed up to pick up DD # 3 as she didn't want to go to the movies in her new (used) car. She traded in her SUV for a grand am. I guess she has to get use to downsizing her life now.

LOL

We're more alike than you think. Mine traded in a brand new 4 runner sport completely loaded for a corolla. Also left a brand new house for a getto apartment that's 40 years old. The money she saved on the 4runner she now spends on her cell bill. Had to get new phone so I couldn't snoop and lost ALL of her role over minutes.

I'll kill myself laughing about this one day.

BC-
HOW COOL AND FUN IS YOUR WW????

How pathetic. Just keep in mind that you have morals, you have a conscious, and you CARE. Not just about you, but about family, your son, your WW, your friends. You CARE. And that is a remarkable thing.

It is funny, one day I am up, one day I am down. It is just such a rollercoaster.

I wish you well!

Sadmo

Hey, wow, you've had an interesting week too...I wanted to talk to you before you headed out for the weekend...I was sitting in the backyard a few minutes ago and was thinking that it would be great if the boys and I have our tent...

But it's at home...I was thinking some backyard fun! Also, have you been to Downtown after 5? You know a band plays...bring a chair, let the boys run around...I was thinking that this is another "free" option for some fun...

What you think?

I've been to dowtown after 5 before. Had a blast, of course Tab Benoit was the entertainment. They have that in Lafayette too, downtown alive, same thing. But yeah, You're not gonna find a better way to have fun for free. Sounds like a good idea. I'll see what time we get to Houma, but I'd think we could make it.

I'm gettin my mouth tore up pretty good today. Gettin some build up work drilled out, redone, and then crowns over it this time. I couldn't think of a better way of spending a thousand dollars that I didn't have. Gotta get it done. Hopefully AFLAC will pick up what insurance doesn't.

Oh, I bought my tickets. I'm going to see Chris in Jul. Done deal. Hope my truck doesn't break down. Using my next 2 expense checks to cover it.

Anyway, let me get some work done before I leave for the dentist.

I'll check in later

Cool! I bet you're wishin you asked for more CS know! LMAO

Good luck with the dentist! I wish you the best! <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/smile.gif" alt="" />

I will begin a detox program for my liver starting immediately in preparation. Will I need to nail down my furniture? I don’t have any deer grease for the grill.

You know I hear that Apple Cider Vinigar is good for that!

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Beau,
I appreciate you mistaking me for Stillhurting, she's pretty cool in my book...

Chris, I say give in and pickle your liver instead...

Sadmo,

I didn't forget about you. Thanks for droppin in. Sorry you're still riding the rollercoaster. I think I'm finally done with that. When I'm triggered all I feel is anger, no more sadness and depression. So I'm up most of the time. It's nice, REAL nice to be back to my old self. I'm enjoying life again and am starting to get excited about the future.

So I hope your rollercoaster goes away soon. Regardless of the reason. Hoping for the best Sadmo.

Chris, Rin,

NO amount of detox could possibly prepare your liver or your arteries for Cajun Fest 07.

Just make sure your health insurance is up to date and you have a few back up emergency numbers.

NOW, THE DENTIST,

3 HOURS OF DRILLING, SCRAPING, OPEN WIDER PLEASE, HERE COMES THE FUN PART, HUH NEVER SAW THAT BEFORE, CHOMP DOWN, GRIND YOUR TEETH, CLOSE YOUR MOUTH, I THINK I'M GONNA ROUND THAT OFF, with 2 sets of hands in my mouth, AND FINALLY, YOUR ALL SET, YOUR GONNA WANT TO TAKE SOME MOTRIN WHEN YOU GET HOME, NOW THAT WASN'T SO BAD WAS IT.

Thank God it's Friday

PSSHHTTT!! AAAHHHHHHHHH!!

Who needs Motrin?

SBD,

Sorry about that. It's all taken care of. <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/wink.gif" alt="" />

I had three crowns done in January; it was AWESOME! Syke! I had to have what they term "crown lengthening surgery" first, though, back in December. They cut the gums back and scrape the bone down so that the crown fits snugly over the existing tooth nubby. That was loads of fun and about $1700 (reimbursed for $500).

Seems I have weak teeth...

Maybe they need more protein? <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/blush.gif" alt="" />

I know, I'm going to he11

but you keep settin yourself up

I can't help it