Dune,

I am sorry I haven't contacted you sooner, but I hope you understand & I am glad you are giving me my space. Thank you for dropping off the bill money, that was nice of you.


I want to just get this said & done & over with. I lied to you, I cheated on you, I withdrew from you. For that, I am sorry. There is no excuse for what I did & I will never try to justify it. I am ashamed, I feel guilty & I am still battling with it.


Things have been in denial for so long. So long. I've kept this all in. My unhappiness. Your unwillingness to change. When you finally decided that you could be a better person to me, Dune, it was too late. It was too late & it is too late. I can't go back to you knowing what I did & things would never be the same. There would always be that cloud looming over head.


I'm sorry I couldn't be the wife you wanted & I'm sorry I will never be the wife you want. I can't & I won't.



I am glad that you are taking steps NOW, I am glad you got a new job that will give you lots of financial freedom & I am glad you cut your hair because it looks nice. You will make someone else happy, not me.



There are so many things that I could hash out. All those years, the way you talked to me, the way you blamed me for everything, the things you would hang over my head - I wasn't happy. Yeah the way I left was not good. But even if there wasn't another man, I would have still left. There is no way, in my head or my heart I could stay.



I am hoping that we can do all of this amicably & split our stuff up. I won't take the bulk of things until I am in my own place. Which should be soon, by July. This is hard for both of us & I just want to make it easy. You have made it easy so far. I want our cat to stay with you for the time being because I think that you need her more. I hope that you have a support system because you really need one.



I love you as a friend and I hope that we can remain friends throughout this all, but know that it will never be the same.



I guess I am saying that we need to start the proceedings soon. I am going to get some advice this week. I would hope that this doesn't go to court because that will cost us both a lot of money that we both, especially me, cannot afford.



Where we live I am allowed spousal support, but I'm not asking for you to give me a lot of money. Right now, I do need help & am asking you for a little help. If you won't, I understand, but if you do that would help me out a lot to get started to be on my own.



I would still ask that you don't call me because it's really tough. So please respect that.



You are a good person, you have a good heart. Please remember that. I hope that this is closure enough for you. I would like a divorce.



I would like it if you can drop off my computer & monitor at my family's house this week & all my cords sticking out of the USB hub & my camera bag as well, you know the backpack. Even if you leave it by the door because they won't be home a lot of this week & I will be staying at other places during the week. So please just leave it there. And my towels in the bathroom.


Thank you, Dune. I really appreciate it.

Bye,

WW

NWTT,

So you went through the same heave-hoe with your WH it seems like,and even throwing out paperwork and walking the walk just about?
Is it safe to say you have absolutely no communication with him, or do you guys keep in touch?

I will be making a mock email for you and anyone really to review prior to me sending it to her.
Dune.

WW,
I understand how you feel the desire to have your own space and respect that, I love you, and that is how I am able to give you what it is you want and need at this time.



This is probably the most information I have been told about the adultery by you and it is good to see you being so open and honest with me.




The excuse for your adulterous affair is there, and it is partly my fault for allowing such an environment to be created.



I did not spend much time with you, did not praise you, did not rejoice when I saw you, I did not acknowledge your contributions to our marriage, I worked very hard to make sure I provided a home and sanctuary for you, and I set that as a priority. This caused the most important component of our relationship to suffer, and that was our friendship, our time together, and nurture the love that I have for you so it could grow into something that would make you happy, and one day see you with children of your own or adopted, and seeing you teach them and love them, this was and is my dream still today.




There are things I could have done to change, and I feel that without being told, or shown what areas I was lacking in, then everything was just fine, or so I thought, and I was greatly mistaken.



This situation has given me the opportunity to look deep inside at who I really am, and explore my own emotions, and I accept responsibility for half of the state of our Marriage before you committed adultery, and with much thought, insight and revelation, and what I have been learning about myself I know I can completely forgive you.



I married you because you are the wife I have always wanted, someone beautiful, kind, compassionate, loving, creative, funny, artistic, and my best friend.



There is absolutely no reason for the way I talked to you, and treated you, but instead I needed to treat you with love, respect, dignity and the integrity you deserve.




I know now you were not happy, and this does not have to mean that you can never be happy together with me again.



I do not agree with you if OM was not there that you would have gone to someone else, because prior to this happening I was searching and am searching inside as to how I could make you a happy woman, and I am well aware that the interest between you two was there from when you worked at your previous location.




I believe what you are looking for is happiness, and I can and am able to provide that because I love you.




It is great to see that you do see me making changes in my life, and thank you for the kind words regarding my new employment. I cut my hair for myself, to better myself, so I can feel better about myself. If I feel better about myself I am a better person, and am able to work on myself daily knowing the future is very bright.




Thank you for letting the cat stay with me, she cracks me up and is fun to play with, but she misses mommy dearly, I can see it in her eyes and hear it when she meows, she's our "baby" you know.




I love you as my wife, a person who is in need of a true loving relationship, and not one built on deceit, and lies, and fancy perfume. I love you for the shooting star you are.




If you want to go ahead with proceedings then you are free to do whatever you want, but it will be without my assistance



I have no problem in helping you in your life and to grow and become the great person you are, but I will not support your adulterous affair with OM.



If you want a divorce, then you will have to go ahead without me because I do not want a divorce, I want the love of my life back. She is lost in an ether like state using OM as a substitute of what was lacking in our marriage, you are better than that, and a great person.



You need to arrange something to pick up your belongings because again I am not going to support, or cater to an adulterous relationship between you and a married man with children, or any man for that matter.




I know you understand, and I appreciate that.

Dune.

I did not spend as much time with you, did not praise you, did not rejoice when I saw you, I did not acknowledge your contributions to our marriage, I worked very hard to make sure I provided a home and sanctuary for you, and I set that as a priority. This caused the most important component of our relationship to suffer, and that was our friendship, our time together, and nurture the love that I have for you so it could grow into something that would make you happy, and one day see you with children of your own or adopted, and seeing you teach them and love them, this was and is my dream still today.
My lack of leadership and headship in our household allowed for us to slowly lead separate lives, and I want you to know that I accept responsibility in part for such an error which would jeopardize the love we have built up together throughout the years.