Sis,

Back from Alaska, and thinking of you.

I have tried to catch up a little on your posts.

I hope things are okay.

(((LS)))

SB

HI, Sis...just back and wanted to let you know that I'm thinking of you and trust you are doing the right thing...

What you need to look yourself in the mirror everyday...

(((SIS)))

LS-
How are you doing? How is your WH?

You are only human, with human emotions. You may want to tell him you are sorry for his loss, or whatever you feel you need to do.

I do not think that there is nothing wrong with that, as long as you do (did) not expect anything in return.

Remember, you are a caring soul, and you really do care... I hope that you just do not get your hopes up, or yourself hurt... we all are rooting for you!

((((((SIS))))))))

(((LilSis)))

Thinking of you and your family

and wondering -

are you just busy & stressed & sad

or are you D-O-I-N-G something?

Sis,

What's happening?

Oh where oh where could my Lil Sis be, oh where or where could she be??

(Just thought I'd give everybody a little tune to stick in your head for the rest of the afternoon.) <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/smile.gif" alt="" />

You okay Sis?

Maybe she's

at the Copa, Copa Cabana

LOL, thanks guy, I like that one better. (PM singing under her breath and doing a little tango down the hallowed halls of the law firm.)

Hey guys...

I'm doing okay. It's just been a very, very emtionally draining, intense, and busy week. I'm taking some time to regroup, get centered, get ahead of the ball at work, and get ready for our trip to the Cape.

Thanks for checking...and thank you even more for caring.

Sis

Vitaly was lookin' for ya while you were out ....

Hey Lilsis... I am glad you are taking time to get centered. I know in many ways this feels like a death to someone in your own family...because in many ways it is.
There is a contingent from our Lodge that is going out.. or have gone.. to pay respects.
I am certain this brings more than the normal share of emotions for you at this tough time in your life. The fact that he was so young and that officer deaths are so rare in that department brings the grief home with a vengence.
You and your family are in my thoughts. I hope your boys are coping with this as best they can.

MEDC

LilSis:

See you soon...

LG

and get ready for our trip to the Cape.

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hope we get good weather. <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/wink.gif" alt="" />

Nia:

I was watching an older PBS special (1996) last night on Ice Cream and they talked about the Four Seas Ice Cream shop on the Cape. Let me know if it's still open, or on the list of activities if you see LilSis.

LilSis:

Hope things are going better for you...

Let us know, OK?

LG

I'm off later today. It was a rough weekend. I'm holding on to the hope that this trip will be the equivalent of hitting the reset button. Right now it just seems like a chore (for which I feel incredibly selfish and ungrateful because this is such a wonderful opportunity). I know that I will be missing WH on this trip, wishing H were a part of it with the boys and I. We would have had fun.

MEDC: It was harder than I thought it would be. Very hard. This was a big deal not only for me and the boys, but the whole community. It was virtually the only news reported all week (WH was on the front page one day), everything was carried live, and the turnout at the hour-long processional was something to see. There were easily over a hundred people in the area that the boys and I staked out, and the route was a couple of miles long. All those people, and it was absolute silence.

nia: How will I know you? I'll be the sad-looking, slightly harried one with two boys in tow, desperately searching her purse for a spare Xanax. That sounds pathetic, I know, but it's probably the most accurate description at the moment. If we had planned ahead, we could have planned a rendevoux point, both worn red geraniums on the lapels of our trenchcoats, in sunglasses and fedoras, reading our copies of SAA.

LG: I'll look for it; although first on the agenda is finding a bookstore that will be open at midnight Friday for DS11 and I to take our traditional Harry Potter book buying excursion. I'd like to find some little local shop. We'll see.

And for those whose words have spoken for me lately....you have no idea how closely you hit the mark:

sdguy: I was right there with you this weekend; fetal position and all. Maybe it's a timeline thing...but if helps, I'm in the same place. It's been so long with this deep hurt. It's exhausting. I'm just tired. I hear you.

Fox: I hear you, too. Every response you have made could have been me, only you are so much more articulate and so more more reasoned than me. You do a much better job at keeping perspective, so I appreciate learning and growing through your experience. Even the AHAs were little lightbulbs for me. So thanks, and I hope you don't mind that I'm just following along while you do all the hard work. You are my trailblazer.

So everyone...a few prayers that this trip helps to clear away the darkness that seems to have descended.

Thanks, all.

I was watching an older PBS special (1996) last night on Ice Cream and they talked about the Four Seas Ice Cream shop on the Cape. Let me know if it's still open, or on the list of activities if you see LilSis.
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i know of an ice cream shop called Sundae School in Harwich that is quite good.

and you can always take a ferry to Marthas Vineyard or Nantucket.

nia: How will I know you? I'll be the sad-looking, slightly harried one with two boys in tow, desperately searching her purse for a spare Xanax. That sounds pathetic, I know, but it's probably the most accurate description at the moment. If we had planned ahead, we could have planned a rendevoux point, both worn red geraniums on the lapels of our trenchcoats, in sunglasses and fedoras, reading our copies of SAA.

LG: I'll look for it; although first on the agenda is finding a bookstore that will be open at midnight Friday for DS11 and I to take our traditional Harry Potter book buying excursion. I'd like to find some little local shop. We'll see.
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there are tons of little book stores on the cape.......i think there is a Borders or a Barnes and Noble @ the mall in Hyannis.
there are lotsa flower stores too....shouldn't be too hard to find a red geranium. LOL.
IF you are interested i will email you my phone # but i know you will be busy.....will you be w/ your sister and aunt?


i am so sorry it's been such a tough week for all of you.
will you be driving or are you flying?

Go to Plan B in your heart.
Cherished

Glad to hear from you Sis. I've thought alot about you lately and hoped you were getting through ok.

I hope your vacation helps to replenish you.



I don't know about the articulate and more reasoned part. (Thanks for that, though) I seem to go round and round and round until I FINALLY say AHA or just let it go until the timing is better. I'm hoping that eventually it'll go "DING! DING! DING! THAT'S WHERE IT FITS!" I'm a bit of a reasoner (AKA being argumentative) and until I get through reasoning (AKA arguing) it doesn't fit. But when it does? AHA!!!! Once I buy in, I can take that idea and run with it, wholeheartedly.

I'm glad you are following along and getting something from my thread. I've done that to yours for a VERY long time. I've said AHA many times from your thread alone. You've gotten such great advice and had some great AHA moments of your own. That I (and many others) have been able to learn from.

Thank you for being here, Sis. Get some rest and recuperate. It ain't over yet......

Fox

Sis, like SL said for me, your pain oozes from your post. I want to cry for you, because I know how bad it hurts. I want to cry with you.

Know that I'm thinking about you and hoping the darkness lifts soon.