Catgirl, you have gotten some great insights from people who have already been in your current place. They would not lie to you; you will feel better when your focus is back on you.

Go back to church, not to save your M, to save yourself, to get closer to the community, to find your own solace, to make friends, to NOT be lonely.

If it's not to be church, then maybe, as someone else suggested, volunteer. Help others; put your own existence into perspective. Relish the time you have with your daughter. Teach her about REAL love, by showing her how much you love yourself.

Me-BS-38
Married 1997; son, 8yo
Divorced April 2009