LaLa,

Could I get you to drop in on cjane over in the resolving conflicts/restoring love forum. She had an A and her husband is taking out his anger on her right now. She doesn't give much info in her only post so far, but she is struggling and I just know you would be of help in her situation.

Thanks,

Mark

Glad you are feeling better and sorry about the aunt thing i think that happens to in most families there is always that one person.

At any rate i can't post about the lawyer stuff on there just in case my hubby decides to jump on here but things are being protected i promise that no matter what i will take care of myself and my daughter.

I did talk to the WH tonight and he said that his IC went well that he feels he will have a decision soon that things are becoming clearer to him. He would not tell me more than that saying he doesn't want to give me hope or make me think the worse. He just wants to be able to trust his feelings first before. he did say he isn't ready to throw the towel in on the marriage yet but he is still trying to sort it all out. He has told his parents the same thing but i'm not sure if that is just more confusion or not.

SOrry to be thread jacking over here but as i said i can't write some of this stuff on my post or too much of it on here cause i don't want to cause a problem.....if you know what i mean.

At any rate thanks for you support and advice i apprecaite it

Sorry I was late showin up tonight guys! My parents stopped by for a visit and then bedtime for kiddos. I'll go check it out right now Mark.

Loving, thank you so much for the update. I have been very worried about ya and I am so glad you were able to protect yourself. I'm proud of you girl!

Just wanted to stop in and say hi. Can't spend too much time tonight, cuz I am in a world of agony. I thought the last few days were bad, but this one is reminiscent of right after the surgery. I can't hardly even think, let alone type.

Anyways, hugs all around...I hope everyone is having a good night!!

Hugs (((((Lala))))

Thanks TMTS, the Motrin finally kicked in...whew...it was a rough night. We won't even get into me running into the corner of the bathroom door frame. I thought I was gonna pass out in front of my kids. That really P*SSED it off, and I was already hurting badly today!

AnyHOO, I need a smoke. Be back shortly to see what RIM is up to...probably typing another friggin NOVEL!! Hahahahaha (I'm just pokin' atcha, girl)

I seen it, I seen it!!! W2S, Lala promised us some nasty foggy Lala stories. (If it dosen't bring back too many painfull memmories that is)

Oh no, I'm sure he'll have a FIELD DAY!!

BTW, Where's that BIG SILLY AUSSIE FREAK been? You bein a Lurky Lurkerton? Quit pretending to work and get on the stick, mister!

someone here is just beggin for an [censored] whooping...

Who me? Took ya long enough! I'll cut ya some slack, though, old people are slow....

I'm young/old enough to take you baby!

Oh, well, HA! We are off to bed, as it is 2:11 a.m. here. Us old farts need our beauty rest <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/pfft.gif" alt="" />...talk at ya tomorrow!

you are feisty girl!

LaLa,

Thanks for posting to cjane last night. I see she hasn't been back yet to answer any questions. Check on her later if you get the chance, Thanks...

And be careful about insulting us old guys. Besides...You're as young as you feel...

Oy Vey, I'm 103!

Eh? Could you speak into my GOOD ear?

Mark

OK, ok, I won't pick on ya for bein' old anymore! Admission IS the first step towards recovery, though...I'm just sayin'... <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/pfft.gif" alt="" /> <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/grin.gif" alt="" /> <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/grin.gif" alt="" />

My MIL took my youngin today, so I get a few hours to myslef. Whoo-hoo! I may actually watch a movie, and not hours of cartoons and video games.

W2S and I had a great talk last night. I told him that the reason I treated him so badly through all of this is because I saw all of his talks before now as an attack on me. I actually thought he was weak and was "one of those people who would never be able to get over" the A. I had actually lost my respect for him, and it was obvious in the way I spoke to him and treated him. I explained that I now realize that my mindset was so skewed. That I now feel like he was amazing for enduring all those months of abuse from me. That he has saved our family... protected our boys from my nonsense, and that I could probably never repay him for all of that. I told him THAT is why I keep calling him my hero. It's like walking around your whole life with bad eyes and not even realizing it. Then, one day, someone puts prescription glasses on your face that are exactly right for you. Everything suddenly becomes crystal clear. For quite a while, you walk around stunned that THIS is how the world is SUPPOSED to look. THIS is what you could have seen for all these years. At first you go through a slight mourning period thinking of all the things you have seen that culd have been so much better if you would have just known...would have just had those glasses. But, eventually, you begin to accept the past, that it cannot be changed, and that you are just so grateful that for the rest of your life, you get to see the world with full clarity, and not a blurred, distorted version of it. That's when the real joy comes....

Hope everyone has a great day!

LaLa and W2S....

I hope you will forgive me for not responding a long time ago. Sometimes, although rude and I hate myself for it, I just cannot bring myself to post. I'm going through some rough spots but I'm o.k.

I just wanted to thank you both for replying back to me and also for your concern.

I've been praying for both of you because I know your situation is difficult. I just don't know what to say about that. It's bad both ways.

LaLa.....I think it's great how much you are trying to give back to this forum. We need strong "former" wayards like you. I've been reading and not posting. It sounds like you're trying and starting to "get it". I've seen you post to people at you expense to help them, by being honest, and that is huge. I am sure that you being here is helping your husband to recover ten fold. I am so glad you are here.

I feel really bad for what you've been going through physically and I pray that you'll be rid of that pain somehow soon.

Yes, our LaLa is awesome.

How ya doing chickadee?

Can you link one of your songs for us to hear?

DS1 has 103' so I'm on pins n needles ready to take him to dr.
~Free

((((MOPERS!!!!))))

Do you know I was going to start a thread tonight or tomorrow to see whaere you were, b/c I was thinking and worrying about you every day. I'm serious. The last time you poseted was that night we were all discussing the exposure. I can happily tell you (well, not hapily...nothing about this is happy!) that W2S has finally found the resolve to tell her no matter what happens (retaliation). Nothing will, I keep telling him that, but he was really stressing going to work every night and worrying about our safety. He said to me a couple nights ago that "There are a lot of things I regret not doing and things I should have done in my life. THIS is not going to be one of them!" SO, he has already started preparing the house just in case the scumball does something, and for his peace of mind. We live in a great neighborhood, though, and our neighbors are unbelievably supportive and will be watching our back also. He and his "posse" don't scare me at all anymore-I refuse to live in fear! My trepidation has turned to determination and I am going to be so thankful to get it over with! I'm sure we will be posting about it within a day or two (I want him to do it tomorrow).

The pain is pretty bad tonight, because I went down to visit my parents (just got home, that's why I am just now responding). All that driving really pi$$ed it off, so I am sitting here waiting for the motrin to kick in-it usually helps quite a bit. I spoke to DH as soon as I got home and he was like "Guess who came on your thread!" You made my whole night, lady!

Thanks for your sweet words, concern, and encouragement. They mean so much to me. So, tell me, is there anything I/we can do to help? If you want to talk, I'm here. I know it's easy to withdraw and start to be consumed by the pain of all this, but I know I always feel better once I vent or let things out here. You are so loved on this board and we all want to be here for you. Please let us...you have helped us more than you know, and we would like the chance to return the favor.

Take care of yourself!

Thanks, Free! Do you know one of my biggest fears coming here was facing (what I thought would be) the "wrath" of BSs. I though you all would never accept me, and how could I blame you? But the most amazing thing is...your support and love (even tough love sometimes) and acceptance has been the difference in our M. It is people like you who can look past all of the horrible things I've done (that probably bring on horrible triggers in your own lives) and reach out to help me that have totally melted my heart. I will never be the same person that I was, and I owe it all to you and my wonderful DH. Words really cannot say what I feel or how grateful I am to all of you.

Thank you from the bottom of my heart!

Man, Mopey always makes me cry!!!

And laugh...I miss your sense of humor, but I know it's still in there...let us help you find your smile again!

PS-Free, maybe sometime in the future. It has been put away until W2S is completely comfortable and happy about it first. He will have to be the one who suggests it, not me. I hope you can understand...