Just pulled this discussion up today to re-read it. Funny thing. I have no more answers. The only thing that has seemed to help is to not think about it. There is no fixing it, no repairing it, nothing to make it better. I just stepped in some of the crap of life and it sucks. period.

Sad thing though. Though it does not stir the feelings in me that it used to... i know it has also wounded my love for my wife. I hate that as well. And I still have no answers.