Not sure if it was self inflicted or not, but by entering your knee and exiting at your ankle, it sounds like you accidently shot yourself?

Okay. I understand now.

And for the record, having morals is not a bad thing Pariah. It will not always leave you burned.

I don't like the term self inflicted as the witch hunt that ensued by the unlicensed "counselor" at work. Anyways I did receive a psych exam by a professional and was cleared just fine.
I was offered and given xanax, but I really didn't want or need them.

Yes it was my own gun. I was putting it in the holster when the hammer caught my belt loop and bulltd it back far enough to set it off if it slipped and that it did. The gun WAS taken AND tested and it repeated the problem over and over.

It entered in the back of my knee and not the front side. The bullet skipped down my fibula until it exited just above my ankle.

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Wow, that had to have been horribly painful!

How long did it take to heal?

What were you hunting? Several of my family members hunt, but primarily with rifles or shotguns.

I used the term self inflicted, not for any other reason than to say that it sounded like you accidently shot yourself. Didn't mean to sound like you did it on purpose...sorry.

Painful was an understatement.

The blood loss was massive and I did have some brain injury from the loss, I'll stop in mid sentence now for no reason and think the thought has finished processing. As you can tell from the scars, the surgeon did alot of work to repair the damage.

If you wish, I'll post up a video to prove that too.

Took three months to get me walking.

I was out zeroing in my deer rifle and went to the pistol side to put a few through the six-gun. Upon re-loading and holstering I set it off with the belt loop.

I keep the pistol for coyotes and wild dogs, but I'd rather keep the idea that I'd shoot a dog to myself as some might find it inhumane and I want to be respectful of other's feelings.

You have video of the surgery?? I'll be sure and finish my sandwich well before watching!

I would imagine you still have recurring pain. How long ago did this happen?

Was this before or after your wife tried to have you killed?

You've really gone through a lot.

You know, this proves a point made way back there earlier. It's not really revenge for the OM motivating you, if his W has to be attractive. If all you want is REVENGE, you could just as easily go after his 450 lb wife with a homely face.

If she has to be attractive, it's about the sex, not revenge.
And it means you have the wayward mindset.

Sometimes I have to wonder how many of the BS who post here are also WS who just haven't been caught yet.

Ugh, that's not the world I live in.

Seems I didn't go to your HS or college either.

I did this. Once. I was 17. Same cal. Went through the floor and missed my mom by about 2 ft. Kept it around for bears. There were alot around where we lived.

ed: Mom took it away. Said she'd deal with the bears from then on.

"I've had an offer and I'm just curious. Ok, this is really just a joke post, but I actually did have an offer as F'ed up as that is."

My serial adulterer WXH had an EA with a friend's wife (they claim it was 'just' an EA but it probably was a PA). The BH worked with both my WH and I, so I knew him too. We spent most of our recreation time with them and another couple too (I refused to continue that after the EA was exposed). Anyway her BH made a pass at me once when my WH was flirting with his wife, and then when the EA was revealed he suggested we cheat with each other to get even. I said no and he got angry and then blamed our spouses' affair on me - because I was didn't act jealous enough with my WH.

I had the opportunity to cheat with my WH's best friend who was single but knew all about my WH's philandering (they would go bar-hopping together when I was gone on business trips). He had started flirting with me (right in front of my WH), and I admit I enjoyed (and needed) his attention (since my WH was typically too busy flirting with OW right in front of me and ignoring me). But when I realized he was (maybe?) serious I avoided him and pretended not to notice his flirting. He kind of made it clear he didn't like me much after that LOL. I told my WH I thought his friend had a crush on me - WH didn't give any indication he cared.

At one point I really did have a brief revenge affair on a business trip. He was involved with a female co-worker of ours, again claiming it was only an EA, but our co-workers were telling me it was much more. The night I strayed he was at a party and making out in the jacuuzi with her in front of people we worked with. He denied the making out part and in his defense said they both kept their underwaer on... My affair was very brief, I ended it, and confessed it to WH, he literally said it was "no big deal" (but then he used that as his excuse for cheating).

The OW WXH ended our marriage and destroyed our family over wasn't married. She had been engaged to a police officer, but he broke up with her and tried to get custody of the baby (which was his). I have never met him, but let him know via his relatives that the OW was allowing my WH to sleep over, to be around his little girl even though he had a restraining order against him because of his rage/violence problem, and that his own daughters (at the time) refused to have anything to do with him because of his lying and rages. I had no interest in getting involved with him.

Having lived the life I have, I still can't get on the revenge bandwagon. Just isn't "me".

I have been raped. I have been assaulted. I have been the BS. I have had crap thrown at me all my life.

Sure, revenge thoughts have crossed my mind. I don't know a human being on the planet who hasn't had them.

I wouldn't act on them. It kind of makes me wonder - that some folks say they carry grudges for "years". I suppose I could have done that, after the rape.

I wonder why I didn't?


Why do some carry grudges and others don't?


I suppose I don't carry grudges because my luggage is already full of other stuff.

SB

video of how I am now.


Yeah, my ankle hurts every day. It can feel like anything from cold running water to stabbing fire.

It happened on Nov. 26 2006.


I got it on tape just before the accident. She got busted by a phone call from OM and SS14 picked up her phone at the dinner table and showed it to me.

Wifey pulled the gas light treatment and I went and got the phone that I had loaded all of her text messages to and slid it across the table to her.

I got her trying to have me killed on the voice recorder the next day when she was driving to work.

Is that not a criminal offence? Did you charge her?

Yes I did and the judge (the one who gave my house away to her) chalked it up as "heat of the moment" anger.

I believe that revenge (at least for men) is conjoined w/ the notion of competition--winning or losing. In general, we don't like losing but can accept defeat on a fair playing field. Being a good sport though when our wives’ (to a certain degree) are stolen from us in an underhanded manner is not something that we usually can be affable about. The form that revenge takes may be disparate and those that result in incarceration are truly self-defeating. My happiness exacts its own revenge, my current relationship is the envy of my XW, and her OM should have been careful about what he asked for b/c I knew what he was getting. Mischief is a fickle ally and often as not, it bites the hand that feeds it.

OWH is a nice man, looks good and is the kind of person I would consider dating or even marrying. I would never have an affair with him or anyone else simply because I would never be involved in an affair after I have experienced being a BS.

But I do dream about revenge on OW. Mostly it is about having people around her talk about her and look down upon her. I exposed the affair at her workplace but I suspect that if people knew all the nasty details they would be shocked. My revenge dreams are about her colleagues looking at her thinking "Did she really do that? Here in the meeting room? In her CAR in the parking lot?"

The men are wondering when will they get their turn with her.

Why not provide those nasty details?

I'd even make up a few.

My dilemma is that I'm pretty sure that my WXH won't regret what he did until I am engaged to my future husband, THEN and only then will he get it.

If I were involved with a new man, it wouldn't really be a 'revenge affair' technically because my WXH divorced me a couple of years ago. So it wouldn't be adultery. And I wouldn't get involved with a new man just to try to get my WXH to defog, or to get revenge. I just realize (and YES sometimes daydream about LOL) the fact that when that day comes, it will have those effects.

It actually sometimes makse me feel sort of sorry for my WXH, knowing that he isn't going to learn any other way, and that it will be too late then. But I don't feel too sorry for him because of what he did to me AND our daughters. I don't feel so sorry for him that I would turn down a man if/when I meet somebody I would want to marry.

Even though my WXH was a serial adulterer, and was cheating on me before, during, and after my one stupid and brief affair, I know that he pretended his adulteries after that were 'revenge affairs'. He recently told our youngest daughter that (of course ommitting the fact that he had cheated before that and in fact was involved with an OW at that time). I informed her of that and reminded her that I didn't take the opportunities to cheat on him for revenge (some of our friends tried to set me up with dates before the divorce was final - thinking it would be OK because my WH was with OW). I talked to her about how he criticized me for not suposeldy reacting properly to his adultery (exposure) and for not 'getting over it quick enough (not accepting/endorsing the adultery). So him pretending his adultery was my fault, for a brief affair I'd had two decades earlier, rendered his making fun of me for not reacting properly, not getting over, his adultery that destroyed our marriage and family a tad hypocritical. I also talked to her about how he had lied to and hurt her and her sisters too, had broken false recovery promises he made to them too, and suggested the next time he brought the subject up she might want to ask him what he was 'taking revenge' against them for? Of course I stressed that he didn't really have any valid excuse for hurting his daughters that way - they had not done anything wrong to cause him to leave to be with OW.