Wow.....

What do you mean what Charlynne Cares devotionals say?

I also signed the Dpapers on the 6/10/08 and my lawyer sent them back to his lawyer for WH to sign....I haven't heard anything and I don't want to phone my lawyer either....

These last 10 days that we have communicated...neither of us have mentioned the D.....

WH has basically been telling me his concerns and worries with his new business and the bank etc...I was always the calm one in times of crisis so maybe he finds it easy to talk to me..dunno...

I really don't know whats going on in his head...

I see this as a very small glimmer of light at the end of the tunnel that can get snuffed out in a heartbeat!!

I've thought about him coming home mainly cos of his financial situation and wondered if that was a good enough reason to allow him back?...Than I thought how much different is that to a situation where WH comes home cos OW dumped him?

All just thoughts...

What do you want?

Forget about anyone else, what do you want?

In their devotionals they often talk about being a friend to your spouse and being an example of a child of God.....basically plan Aing them ALWAYS....not to judge or be negative...that sort of thing....

And always be ready,emotionally to receive them home,like the prodigal sons dad !!!!I know its hard......
Also to have your house in order ready for them to come home....

I've always had a problem with plan B going against Gods way ....although I do understand its for OUR best interest,and sanity...I know it helped me loads...

To tell you the truth I'm petrified of him coming home!!!

I would love a chance to recover my marriage...the balls in his court though....

I would be interested in how other people feel about that. In the end, we have to do what we want because it's our M and lives.

Interesting concepts for sure.

Queenie to be honest with you I was nervous posting my feelings cos its not MB way...but I felt I owed you a sincere answer....

I know lots will disagree with me here but I feel what will be will be.....as you say, its my marriage in the end....

Basically I'm going with my gut instinct here(my God instinct really!!)...

Lets see what happens......

I'm with ya no matter what. The end result is what WE WANT, our M restored or at least given that chance.

I'm open to anyway of getting there.

My eyes and ears are open.

In the end, if it's G-ds will, no matter what way it happens, it will.

That's the hardest to accept too.

Thanks for your encouragement and support Queenie..

Oh HOPE,

You ALWAYS have my prayers, hope and support.

We have been there for each other during the worst times.

If life is getting better for you, I am so happy. If WH comes home and you didn't do it MB, I have no judgement against you or anyone else.

What matters is that your family be healed.

Who knows maybe MB will be a role in the recovery process. We simply dont' know.

Yesterday afternoon the lawyer met me at work to sign more papers regarding the loan. He commented that he would be interested to see how WH and OW panned out and to keep him informed!! I won't of course but was an interesting comment for him to make...

I tms WH to let him know that the last of the papers were signed now.He replied"thanks. thanks for letting me know too."


Do you think that I should push for an answer from him or just wait and let things play out on their own?

I would just wait, and let things play out on their own.

Hi Hope,

I had to laugh when I misread your last phrase.

I read "...his balls in the court though..."

Do you think I'm becoming dyslexic?

Believer,I was thinking along those same lines,purely cos I'm nervous of his reaction...
Also,I've always been one to have to control things...and WH knows this.....he will be irritated I think if I did confront him....I'll just give him his space.

WH is going to have to sign the D papers and make that final decision.WH will have to appear in court on the day the D goes through as well......

At this stage I've nothing more to lose......

I do know one thing for sure....this business venture will be far more important to him than OW.So if he realizes that this affair is going to drain his coffers more...OW will go...I'd bet my life on that!!!

What I don't like is that WH is not giving me an inkling of his train of thought....he must know that I'm waiting for an answer...I feel a bit like a doormat at the moment even though I know I've allowed this

I still wouldn't like to be in WH shoes.....

Patience,patience,patience......

Hope, my sister once told me that she heard once, when you pray for patience, then you are given opportunities by G-d for patience.

Maybe you would want to see what other attributes you would like to have during this time besides patience. Perserverance, strength, clarity of walk, etc.

Just a thought.

On Tuesday,its DS18's Valedictory service at school, which is obviously a big event...

The school only gives 2 tickets per child due to shortage of space in the school hall,so basically only mom and dad are invited..thank goodness.....

I have text WH that I have his ticket and he is to come fetch it at the house or my work..that was this morning,still no reply...I am not going to remind him either.This is VERY important to DS18....

My dilemma is there is a tea for parents,scholars and teachers beforehand....how do I engage WH?...do I stand with friends...do I include WH....also do we sit together if he asks..

I am leaning towards arriving on my own and behaving as if he isn't there.If he wants to engage me its up to him...WH doesn't really know as many of the other parents as I do and I know he will feel awkward....I'm actually hoping he'll miss the tea beforehand and just go straight to the hall.

A friend of mine wanted to send her son to the private school that 2 of OW's boys attend.The monthly school fees are THREE times what I pay for my boys government school!!

OW is currently unemployed...her EXH better be covering those school fees and not WH!!!

WH text me today saying "it would be easier if I just met you there if thats ok with you" (about his ticket..)

Later I text back "I can drop your ticket at the entrance to your place tomorow after work if you prefer.."

I haven't received a reply yet...

DS16 has been spending lots of time this weekend with his friends and he seems happy.Its such a relief for me....He is having a friend sleep over tonight,which I'm glad about as I'm working a double shift tomorrow and will only be back late.

Hi Hope, just checking in to see how you are doing?

Queenie thanks for popping by....

I worked sat morning and a double shift yesterday so I didn't do much else...

Last night I spoke to WH briefly about DS18's Valedictory service on Tuesday....he wants to meet me there. I asked him why didn't he reply to by TM's and he said that OW's cellphone was stolen out of the shop...so she puts her sim card in his phone sometimes, hence he only reads his messages late..! :crosseyedcrazy:

I said why can't she use one of her kids phones?...silence...

I couldn't resist asking him if he was still giving some thought to us and he got cross and said stop asking me!!
I said as long as you tell me when you've made up your mind and not keep me hanging! I said you give me not explanation or anything... He said he would let me know when his made his decision...

I know I'm being a doormat ....I am going to leave the topic now and just charge neutral....
I am feeling better though,..I think just the fact that he is giving some thought to us tells me that things can't be a bed of roses on his side.

I had to tell him of a big halloween party one of our best friends has organized.DS18 is D-Jaying at the party and this couple always go full out with their parties!!! It falls on this friday and WH wanted the boys to go to him the full week end. WH understood...I wondered if he was a bit envious??

I'm making sure that I look like a GODDESS tomorrow for the V service as its formal.
DS18 says he hopes I don't cry!!LOL
I do get emotional at farewells...will have to be strong especially if WH is sitting next to me!!