OK...so for obvious reasons from this thread I have been in a state of chaos, paranoia, obsessing and just basically [censored] up for the last few days.
***TMI WARNING***
However, last night we had a major breakthrough. My WW initiated sex with me last night. It was very passionate and loving. Better than any sex we�ve had in years. She started crying after. I didn�t ask why; I just held her and told her I loved her (which I really meant BTW). I think she felt guilty for what she has put me through and it was just emotional for her. I�m an optimist and this is how I interpreted it. Anyway, it was just wonderful for me. FYI, this was the first time since dday (6 months ago) that we had sex.
As for the �date night incident�, hell, I really don�t know if it was planned or not, but It may have been a wake-up call for WW. We will see. I am going to plan a conversation with WW to discuss some of this stuff. I will not give up my sources, but I do want to get an idea of what�s going on in her head. During the past 6 months, I don�t think WW could have sex with me because she was in deep withdrawal and pining for OM. The run-in with OM (planned or not and my reaction � rage) may have thrown her back into reality. This could be wishful thinking, but I�m going with it for now until proven otherwise.
Don�t get me wrong, I know things are not perfect for me and WW. She has pretty much done the opposite of how a WW should reconcile with a BS, but I�m just hoping the fog is lifting and we can start a REAL R soon. Again, we will see.
I appreciate everyone�s comments and attention to my sitch. I was REALLY struggling yesterday.
