Be sure to start with the first one.
The Book Of Love
After that, any order you like.

:happynewyear: to you Bugs

BUGS

To the JERKS who have HURT you.

for the TRUS GODDESS you are

Military men have buckled under less pressure and chaos than you. Yes, you are so strong, but you also are someone who FEELS so deeply and every cliche in this world won't make it better today.

Time take time - CRAP

This too shall pass - POOP

You deserve better and it's probably just around the corner - TODAY would be good.

There are NO words of wisdom when someone is truly hurting and knows exactly what is happening because they have been through it before in such short a time. There is probably only walking through it as gently and gracefully as possible and just being open to whatever comes next. Which I imagine can't be a very easy thing to do.

I stand by my FAITH and TRUST in G-d and believe that we all reach that blessing of our true desires one day, but it's just getting to the one day.

You know you are doing all the right things, you know that you are taking care of yourself as hard as it is.

All I can just offer is that I'm here to just read when you need to vent and reach out my arms to you when you need it, and continue to that whatever those blessings are for you from G-d. THEY GET HERE SOON.

Be gentle and good to yourself.

Sorry I wasn't clear, bugs. I meant I think R was not ready for a REAL relationship...not you. Happy New Year!!!

Oh, Bugs. You are a fine, fine woman.

I don't have any wise words but I agree 100% with Queenie.

Drac was not about you and R was not about you. Their issues are theirs. You are certainly effected but you were not the cause.

KNOW THAT.

Stop blaming yourself for things that are out of your control.

Shame on R for treating you like that.

Remember to breathe, my friend.



Fox

How are you, Bugsy? Anything you need to share or get off your chest?

What's new with DSS and Ladybugs?

I kicked butt on the Wii boxing cardio watchamacallit last night. Did it for an hour and didn't even realize it!

I like boxing - works out alot of the aggression. Especially with DD15 sitting in the recliner telling me I'm not quite doing it right!

Fox

Yeah, you're tellin' me, Pep.

I tried to get her to do it, too. But all I got was "I'm helping YOU. " I don't want to look that silly." smirkety smirk



LOVE your sig line, by the way. Cracked me up!

Fox

I think for any forward progress, it is a must to do this. Avoiding it will only delay the pain and mourning.

I know it's hard right now, but you KNOW this will pass and you will have brighter days.

Also, I don't know WHERE you saw a pic of R and his GF, but NIP IT!!! stay away from any sites where you may encounter 'updates' on his sitch. Cut him out!

Hugs for Bugs

Bugs,

Hugs to you. I am sorry that you are still hurting. It's just too close to your last heartbreak. Just not fair.

You know that this will eventually pass and that you just have to ride it out, but it doesn't make it any better.


Agreed. This dude is not worthy of even a passing thought from you....

Hey all!

Thanks for checking on me. I seem to have turned part of the corner on moving forward. More 'good' moments than bad the past few days. I've tried VERY hard to stay focused on other things and keep busy.

First thing I did was dye my hair. Yep, did it myself. Have NEVER done that in my life, but needed a 'spark' to get moving. It's subtle, but different enough. I'm just happy I didn't end up having to wear a hat and call my hairdresser for an emergency appointment to FIX it!

Next thing I did was start shopping for a new car for myself. I've decided it's time to start getting things that I've always wanted. Spent time at a couple of dealerships yesterday. Wasn't able to close the deal that I want - YET. But it will happen. It makes me laugh when dealing with some of these car sales guys,,,,,those that don't think women know what they are doing when it comes to buying cars! Silly boys.

I 'should' be doing more activity on the Wii myself, but have been pretty busy with work, which is good. In fact, I just found out that I've been given a new opportunity to manage our construction relationship for THE 'major' retailer in the US. Have our first meeting next week & I'm pretty excited about it.

I have managed to keep myself away from any sites that would give me any info on R. I'm proud of that. Things that pop up still get me to thinking about him, but I'm allowing myself to have those thoughts and not beat myself up. Atleast I'm no longer bursting into tears when the thoughts come. Progress. Slow, but progress!

Ladybugs had a snow day today. Text last night from Drac that she she was off today (last night was his night with her). I responded only that 'yes' I saw that she was off. If he wanted me to have her today, he needed to ASK. He didn't and I didn't offer. I emailed asking where I should pick her up today. He finally replied that he would bring her to me, which works for me!

He said she was at the Y swimming and they'd be here by 3. Later he texted that he had to drag her out of the pool and they still needed to go eat. I replied that there was no hurry and to let her have fun. I should have stayed silent.

He replied "You need to come out next time it snows and watch them sled the hill at X location. Really cool"

UGH! Like I'm going to go with him to watch the kids go sledding?? As if we are a family & all is happy happy land? He probably expects me to ride over there in the same car with all of them, including the latest ho!

Not gonna happen. I'm still perfectly happy if I don't have to see him at all. Ever. Like SL, though, a certain amount is required because of DSS and Ladybugs. I will tolerate what MUST be, but that's all.

Needless to say, I have NOT replied to that message!

I think I'm going to go start a pot of chili. Perfect weather for it and it's Ladybugs favorite. Plus, it will last me through the weekend while she is gone & I won't have to cook! I LOVE to cook, but only when there is someone to cook FOR. Cooking for 1 just isn't worth the effort.

Guess I'd better get some work done before Ladybugs gets home.

Thanks again for checking on me. I know the sadness will pass. I know I deserve better. Time will heal this broken heart. I will worry about things like having made such a bad choice/judgement at some point down the road.

Whoa!

This is a long post. I may have to take my laptop to the bathroom.

We'll wait.......

He's yankin our chain...he ain't in the bathroom. He's just waiting to see how many responses he'll get from his post! Turdnugget

Turdnugget ????

Wow, I'm hurt.

You know how sensitive I am.

Well, gol dang it!

I'm going to miss all the fun ~ I hafta go pick up some hay.

to you

to you


sweet Bugsy

to you

I hope your day is filled with lots, presents and all lifes blessings

:happyhanukkah:

Oh? Really?

Well, in that case,

Happy birthday, bugs!