Turtlehead
I want to THANK YOU soooo very much
you understand where I am at
that helps me feel much better ty
I have told him there are other things that can be done here..
And have some of the things you talk about here...
But he doesn't go there...
He even knows that I have taken matters into my own hands
you know what I mean here
Still he doesn't try...
That is why I feel the way I do...
And I think I am about at the end of my rope here..
I do not beat him up I won't do that to him...
And YES I am very committed to this relationship
To me I feel no different then if we were married
He would mean no more to me if we were then he does now
It has been 11 years now...
I am a buyer I know that
I am going to talk to him about this
and will try my hardest not to get upset
all day today I have felt like crying
I have been a mess here
I will start off by telling him I am a buyer and not a renter and explain that to him...
And think I will tell him if he says the same things to me
That what I hear in that is something else is more important to him...
He will get bent can tell you that right now
every time I try to talk to him about this it seems to end up in a fight...
I even said to him today
I so wish we could talk about this without it ending up in a fight all the time...
He likes to say to me
what ever I do it is never enough
and he says to me
I want what I want
I can tell you this
I bust my butt here to try and make sure all is taken care off
and he comes home to a clean house and dinner ready every day...
He has even said to me
What more could a person ask for here....
I don't think I am asking for to much here
I really don't
I don't think I am being selfish here...
At least I hope I am not...
thank you again
I really feel I can talk to you
and that means a lot to me