To anyone that can help,
This is the ex fiancee not Unseen2.

I am not on this very often nor do I really know how to maneuver this forum but I will enlighten all to what I struggle with the most....
We have been together for almost five years and he has continually berated my son who has neurological issues that come with erratic behaviors. He has criticized and belittled until all kiddos as well as I are unsure that we do anything right. I supported his emotional ups and downs, his erratic spending habits and lack of budgeting, his complete removal of any form of affection for 6 months at a time, his selfish tendencies where he would be angry or upset over lack of attention for himself but it was completely okay for him to blow off any special occasion for someone else. I never once have screwed around on him nor even thought about another man until I broke off our engagement recently and asked for us to break up. I would have loved this man with my entire heart until my very last breath but he stomped and crushed that love little by little and has done very little to rectify the hurt he caused over the past years until now when I have resolved to end the relationship regardless of how much it tears me up inside. I have lost respect for the man he is and I do not know how to get that back. He compares me to his ex whom had numerous affairs while he was home and gone and was/is very self-centered. Seriously, I am in no way even remotely in that same category. I should have left years ago but I tried, for all of us I tried. I could not even imagine going into all the details of why I am where I am in my emotions and how all has led to this point. He definately has anger issues that I do not feel are healthy for my kiddos nor I. I asked for us to separate, I did not EVER cheat on him. He broke my heart the day he called my son who is 11 yo a "worthless piece of [censored]" and I am not sure I can EVER forgive him for that...... Good Luck to All
Sincerely,
Broken