No, not anger. We aren't angry at you. Most of us just have very strong opinions on marriage and family, and what it takes to have a health, strong marriage and create a healthy family.

It's painful to see people make multiple mistakes with their life, knowing that it is innocent children that will be paying the price for those selfish mistakes.

I really don't know what else you expected from here.

Thank you Schoolbus.. I do know you are saying the truth.. and i appreciate it.. thats why I decided to post part of my life cuz i know i will get honest answer.. it was just yesterday i felt attacked and hurt.. since some took it as I'm sleeping around, and I dont take care of my kids.. and i have never been that type of person and never will be.. when i fell into that relationship with that other guy.. I was hurt and upset.. and to be honest not even at my daughter's dad.. i was mad and upset at my sister.. cuz she is beautiful.. not saying i'm not.. just saying she can pick and choose whom ever she wants.. and she had to choose him.. not only that.. then cover her trail like she is innocent.. and to top it all up.. she was staying at my house, eating my food, close to MY kids.. we are 7 brothers.. 5 are from a different dad.. her and me are the only ones from same mom and dad.. i would have never thought she would do something like that.. i really lost it.. I didnt want to go into all details.. but i tried to kill myself 3 times.. i was taken to the hospital almost dead and they got me drinking Paxil cuz i would be laughing and all of the sudden i destroyed everything around me.. thats when i decided my daughters didnt need to see all that.. i was scared i would get one of those episodes when i was with them... thats when i met that guy and thats when i felt better.. after that.. i noticed he was just like my paxil pill.. i was using him to go out and drink and not think about my real life.. thanks God I overcame it.. well that episode.. i still have my dreams and my thoughts.. but i can deal with it better.. i dont think about death as a way out anymore.. i jog.. i listen to music.. i draw.. i do graphic designs.. i go to college .. i keep myself busy.. as much as possible.. and 85% of the year I am good.. but there is always that 15% where i dream about them together.. and that makes me wonder.. dont get me wrong.. he is a great guy.. he doesnt drink doesnt smoke doesnt go out .. its just that i know everyone is right.. the feelings are there for her not for me..

Vibrissa.. I understand.. its my first time doing this.. I have never participated in any kind of forum.. i just thought people understand and not judge.. I was insulted yesterday called a .... (sleeping around) to protect myself and not bring children to this world.. and that Im a bad mother.. how would anyone feel if they told you that?.. i have read what i wrote a million of times.. and i dont see where i said i sleep around.. i dont see where i said i have like 10 kids.. I only came here to ask if you guyz see the same thing i do.. and thats if he is still interested in her and if i continue with this and everyone said no.. and i accepted it cuz deep inside i have always known its true.. but then it got out of hand where it was completely irrelevant.. u know what it remind me off.. lol you know when in school the teachers told you a secret and you had to pass it along the classroom and by the end it was a mess.. LOL.. thats how i felt.. I thought damn.. when i open the thread again i will be a drug addict, and have HIV.. etc.. I swear thats what i was waiting to see.. and yes i was just gonna leave the forum and not come back but i just was curious to see what else people had to say about me.. lol.. I hope i dont offend or disrespect u or anyone with everything i have said.. its not my intentions.. thanks everyone..

Siemprenina,

You need to stop being so defensive. No one called you any names, said you sleep around, or said you don't take care of your kids. What they did say was that your mistake was having unprotected sex and having children out of wedlock with a guy that you know wasn't even interested in YOU. That wasn't very smart, and isn't good for your children to bring them up in that kind of environment. We just wanted to you look back and reflect on your mistakes and learn from them, so that you choose more wisely in your future relationships.

Also, you need to get over you insecurity and jealousy of your sister. So what she's hot? A lot of the most beautiful people in the world are also the most awful because they are used to everyone fawning all over them and giving them everything. Once they get older and their looks go, they turn into unhappy and bitter people. Trust me, you don't want to be your sister.