Oh I think the hot water bottle will stay too!! forreror rocher are delicious but alas time to make an entrance for dinner!!

One week later still in dark Plan B and I feel so much better if not a bit confused

I have read lots of threads over the last week.

A big hats off to the vets who tell us repeatedly what to do and we just ignore them....why is that ?

To anyone else who reads this just do what they say you're foggy you don't know wth to turn just listen and do as they say.

I have a little problem of another male, he has turned my head big-time, I only met him this time last week, I have seen him (accidently ) 4 time since then and he is just lovely, not as attractive as WH but such a lovely kind man and he showed me attention calling me sweet-heart, helping me out when my car broke down, kisses on the cheek each time he leaves.

He will stay that way as he is in a relationship but yes I have what would seem a crush, it's almost like I am trying to have a crush on him to forget WH. Whatever gets you through the day I suppose.

Tilly - you probably want to pay attention to the tendency to develop a crush as it gives you clues as to why you stayed attached with an abusive wayward for so long, when it was not healthy to do so.

Some things to consider:

1. How do you feel about yourself? Are you good company for yourself?

2. Why do you need to be an a relationship? List it out - typically somewhere in there, is a message that __________ completes you. You do not feel whole without a relationship to validate your worth.

3. A crush complicates and distracts. What is it you are trying to escape by creating complications and distractions in your life.

When you find out the whys, you'll be able to start working on the real part of you that needs healing and won't get healed on a track that includes another person.

1. Feel okay with self a little bruised and battered.

2. Okay company for self but better with others.

3. No I don't need to be a relationship but do miss cuddles,I am trying to distract myself from what happened with WH and what could happen next year, I guess.

I also feel old, I feel that without WH no-one could ever love me again, yes cared of being a single parent I guess. Which is strange because that is what I have been for 18/19 months and it's fine.

I think what I missed out is I do think Wh and I will Divorce next year, after reading through so many threads his A has been so messy with OW children involved, social services - allegations against WH, drug agencies, all on his part and I don't ever want to be part of that life.

I need to Plan B first to kill of any love I still have which may take some time, hey he may Divorce me first as OW keeps pushing him to.

I found some pictures of the old him today. He even looks so different now.