if he has an email i do not know about he doesnt acces it from home.<BR>Im a Puter junkie and know every avenue of snooping puter even so far as to get passwords using dos.<BR>at one point he allowed me put a keystroke logger on his PC however it was causing major problems with some his programs (conflicts) and giving him blue screens of death etc...<BR>i seen this for myself..... so the program was removed. abeit grudgingly.<BR>So my advisor Dr.[H]<BR>say he is continuing the affair or another one... <BR>what do i do now?<BR>I have plan Aed my butt off already and i cannot stand being second in his life..to OW or to pc gaming.<BR>i told him this ....he says the gaming is a stress reliever <P>maybe so however he fails to realize how much i need him right now...either that or he doesnt care.<P>

THE LATEST:<P>Last night i was over my mothers house helping her do some graphics on her computer for her business. H called 2 times in a 15 minute period... the second time he says.. why you answerind the phone are you waiting for a call?.... im like Huh?<BR>then i logged my mothers puter on to get somestuff from her web page and it was busy when H tried to call. his comment on this was do you go to your mothers to go online?.......insinuating that i was meeting someone online.<BR>so i came home and asked what al lthat crap was about. i also asked him why he would think i would cheat on him.... he said because i deserve it..... i also told him that if i was gonna go and screw around that last thing i would be doing would be working on the marraige<BR>anyhow im not a vengeful person and that last thing i would do to "get back" at H would be go out and have an affair.<BR>i am very upset that my H think i would belittle myself and our marriage this way...............i think i handled this rather well and once again i wait for H to spend some time with me..........damn his computer to he11 ........ he didnt log off til about 4 this morning ...... and then tries to wake me up for sex?...WHAT you have got to be kidding...... his puter is in the bedroom and i had to listen to click clack all night not to mention his voice as he chatted with others......... I am sick with a cold sleep is hard to come by right now. I cant just wake up whenever he wants to have sex?.......i have to get up at 7 with the baby too...... Im sure i made him mad by telling him to let me sleep ..... but i think H is unreasonable in that respect.........let me ention that was available from 8 to 11 watching TV in the bedroom. why couldnt he ask me then?

Also i told H that it hurts me the way he lashes out at me....... i told him that it mostly hurts bcause i know he would never treat her (OW) the way hes treating me. He didnt have a reply to that just an i'm sorry.<BR>