Orchid,

Thanks for the kind words and the pep talk. I really needed it. I now that I am not a failure, but man do I really feel that way sometimes. I guess I just can't get past my past failings. I try to put them behind me, but d***** they keep coming back to hit me every now and then.

I guess it is time to accept defeat and understand that she and my step daughter have moved on in there lives. I have two kids to raise and I have to give all of my love and energy to them and hope that it is enough. I still feel like I am lacking. Almost like I am not up to the challenge. That is really hard for me to accept, because I have never given up on anything in my life. I feel like I am doing that by giving into the D. I feel like I am abandoning my step daughter by doing that. I don't want to give up, but what other option do I have? She has put the marriage behind her. Now why can't I put it behind me and allow it to die a natural death?

Indy

<small>[ March 13, 2003, 08:21 AM: Message edited by: INDY_357 ]</small>

Everyone,

I haven't really posted a lot for a while now, but I thought that I would at least drop a line. I have final started taking my WW's pictures down in the house and I am currently getting new pics of the kids and the rest of the family to replace them with. I never thought that I would get to this stage. It feels so liberating that I feel a weight being lifted off of my shoulders. I haven't really come to a decision with calling the lawyer and finishing the D process yet, but I think about it a little bit each day now. I am just wondering if it is the fear of the unknown or what? I can't really put a finger on it. I would like to hear what you all think about it. Maybe I can get a better understanding of it.

Thanks,
Indy

P.S. Orchid, add another point to your total. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" />

</font><blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr /><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">Originally posted by INDY_357:
<strong>Everyone,

I haven't really posted a lot for a while now, but I thought that I would at least drop a line. I have final started taking my WW's pictures down in the house and I am currently getting new pics of the kids and the rest of the family to replace them with. I never thought that I would get to this stage. It feels so liberating that I feel a weight being lifted off of my shoulders. I haven't really come to a decision with calling the lawyer and finishing the D process yet, but I think about it a little bit each day now. I am just wondering if it is the fear of the unknown or what? I can't really put a finger on it. I would like to hear what you all think about it. Maybe I can get a better understanding of it.

Thanks,
Indy

P.S. Orchid, add another point to your total. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" /> </strong></font><hr /></blockquote><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">Fear of the unknown? Quite possible. Moving forward is part of the healing process. Never view yourself as a failure when you are doing your best.

You stated above of feeling liberated. This is a good place to be. If your W does not want to return to her family, it is her loss more your family's loss. Will you and the children recover? Yes. But it will take time.

Be safe and healthy.

L.
Hey, U gonna explain about that 'point' comment? <img border="0" title="" alt="[Razz]" src="images/icons/tongue.gif" />

<small>[ May 09, 2003, 12:06 AM: Message edited by: Orchid ]</small>

Orchid,

I am still working on the picture and stuff issues. I am currently going through all of our stuff and seperating it again. I am going to try and get it to her in the next week or so.

I don't think that I can give out the info on the point or not. I am still thinking through that one. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Eek!]" src="images/icons/shocked.gif" />

Indy

<small>[ May 14, 2003, 03:43 PM: Message edited by: INDY_357 ]</small>

Originally posted by INDY_357:
I am still working on the picture and stuff issues. I am currently going through all of our stuff and seperating it again. I am going to try and get it to her in the next week or so.

Orchid: Good, you may find this task cleansing for your soul.

I don't think that I can give out the info on the point or not. I am still thinking through that one. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Eek!]" src="images/icons/shocked.gif" />

Orchid: Ok, but you may be keeping some of these MBers in suspense!!!! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Eek!]" src="images/icons/shocked.gif" /> <img border="0" title="" alt="[Razz]" src="images/icons/tongue.gif" /> <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" />

take care,
L.