pray- I am certainly praying for you and your H. I know it seems quite dark to you now but dont despair. Read Psalm 34- it was such a comfort to me in the worst of H's insanity. My pastor told me to think of him as temporarily insane- that really helped alot some days. My H would come home for dinner most nights acting like a regular dad with the kids, wear his wedding ring then leave at 10 pm for his OTHER SECRET life at OW"s condo and he would look at apts and attorneys on his lunch hrs. How insane is that? VERY! But the Lord proved to be more powerful than the repeated grasp of Satan. Take comfort in that. The more contradictory their behavior is, the more it shows their struggle between darkness and the light.My H couldnt handle going to church for a few months after d-day but now he is back and even stronger in his faith. God comes back to look for that one lost sheep- believe it. Keep the faith- lifeismessy

<BLOCKQUOTE><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><HR>Originally posted by lifeismessy:<BR><B>The more contradictory their behavior is, the more it shows their struggle between darkness and the light.</B><HR></BLOCKQUOTE><P>Lifeismessy,<BR>The problem I have in believing is that my H's behavior IS NOT contradictory!!! He has GONE to his "new life" and is acting "normal" by everyone's account.<P>There is nothing weird in anything he is doing, other than that he doesn't want to have anything to do with me!! All his other actions are perfectly normal - to his son, his brother-in-law. He sounds "fine" to me on the phone... This is very discouraging to me.... I know I'm not supposed to look at the circumstances, but we are flesh, we NEED something fleshly to look at to confirm what we are believing.<P>Please pray that this "false peace" he is showing is all on the outside, and that God is working on the inside.<P>Thanx-<BR>Lupo<P>

Thanks for your prayers. Yesterday I told him I can no longer have contact with him. It hurts too much to know what he is doing and have him come over and either act like everything is fine or be very angry. <P>He thinks by coming over and giving us crumbs of attention that this makes up for him leaving us. I have told him we can make a schedule for him to see our daughters and the finances can be handled through email. <P>He appeared in shock when I told him as long as he is seeing the ow I don't want any contact with him. <P>When he left I had nothing to say to him but a very sad face. He looked like he was sad also but there was nothing more to say. <P>Please pray that he will see clearly through God's eyes what he is doing to me and my daughters. Also pray for him to see what he is leaving for this ow. He is living with three separate families in a tiny two bedroom house in the ghetto in Oakland, CA. We live in a very nice house in the suburbs and are so blessed by God. Most of all pray for him to see the love and peace of Jesus that he is leaving. This woman and her relatives are Buddhist. Talking about a "midlife crisis"!!<P>Is your husband home with you?? How long did it take for him to return?<P>Pray for me to believe God will go after the one lost sheep, (my husband). I feel like noone is going after him. I feel like the only one who cares. Pray for encouragement and faith to be my friend. <P>Thanks,<BR>Pray2Day