I know sometimes the devil invades and tries to tell me it's all my fault and I have to remind myself it's not.
I haven't spoke to him since Jan. 3rd. It's been hard but I have to be strong and not call him or have any contact with him, plus he usually doesn't take my calls anyway. I think he's very unhappy and just doesn't know what to do. I've asked him once or twice if he's happy and says no, but he just doesn't know what to do. He's not a Christian man, and hasn't been able to figure out that if he would allow God into his life then life would be easier than what it is now. I could have never been able to get through this without God, he's what keeps me strong. I pray nightly that he accepts God into his life.
I have spoken to his mom about him possibly being bipolar and she kind of shrugged it off but then a few weeks later she stated that she thought he may need to go on an anti-depressant, so I think she has thought about and looked at the pattern. But he and his parents had a huge agrument about the way he is doing things (they know about the affair) and how wrong he's being a few weeks ago and they haven't even talked to him since that eposide.
I tell you, it's all a big mess right now and he just won't confide in anyone. He knows that I still and will always have a realtionship with his family (all of them) and I he thinks that makes them against him.