S&C,
I just got to read this post tonight. It brought tears to my eyes. Some envy, but not an envy of "you shouldn't have that", just "I wish I had that too." I know that I have to go through my pain and "sifting of the chaff" to have His Will Done. Then I felt this joy for you and your W. This is wonderful to see, and is such a testament to His Power and Glory.
May God continue His Blessings upon you and your family.
I heard a sermon by Dr Charles Stanley earlier this week about "sifting the chaff". It was very moving because he mentioned that the sifting was not only done amongst mankind, but against each individual as well. As children of God, His Will is make us to perfection, like His Son, Jesus Christ, our Lord and Saviour. We go through these tribulations in, not only our M's, but our lives as well, to round off those rough edeges; to bring about those qualities that will show us as a testament of God's unending Mercy, Love and Awesome Power. For me that journey to smoothness, if you will, is to become humble, patient and at peace. Things that have not been part of my makeup for more that twenty years. Things that my W has NEVER seen in me.
The one great quote I want to share from Dr Stanley's sermon. Well, it's the gist, not the quote. "Too many are asking God, 'When will this trial/test/pain be over?' We should be asking, "How am I doing?'"
Very tough to say, but when you think about it, the affliction will not end until He says so, so why complain?
I admit, I have been envious of couples who have good M's. Today, I was working at a client's desk. The woman is very pretty and before my proclaiming and accepting Jesus as my Lord and Saviour (9/3/03) I had some lusty thoughts. Today, she went off to lunch and I sat at her desk. All over the cubicle were pictures of her family; trinkets from places that had vacationed, etc. As I checked it out, I found a few prayer pictures of the Blessed Mother. I don't know her M situ, but, based on her displaying God and his Holy family at work, I would guess that it is a good M.
I felt envious of the "fun" you could see they were having. I felt sad about wondering if that would ever happen for me and my W and C?
As I have mentioned in other prayer postings, God is showing miracles (I never experienced these before). Well, another one. Wed, I was saying a Rosary on the way to work, as usual. I had not finished the one from the prior day, so I continued from there. I made up my mind to stop at 7:00 so I could listen to Dr Stanley on the radio. While driving up the turnpike, a bug, smaller than a dime, was crawling on my window. The old me, would have killed the thing. I didn't, saying it is one of God's creatures. So I finished one Rosary and starte the other. Every now and then, the bug would disappear into the weather stripping on my window (there is a gap between the glass and the door frame). When it disappeared I thought it flew off (65 mph). Then it reappeared.
It was nearing 7, and it returned. Iwas getting annoyed, saying for it to go away; it was a distraction to my praying. I turned to look at it again, and it leaned forward, like leaning on it's elbows. It was in a praying pose. I started to well up. God was telling me, through this "praying mantiss" to continue and finish my Rosary, then listen to the radio afterwards. Amazing and Awesome God!
L&C,
I would be interested in knowing more about you not signing the papers. I rec'd the initial papers back on Sept 5th. I have 35 days to answer the court. I don't want a D and I told my W the same, adn that I was going to contest it (last part, wrong thing to say). I have not seeked any leagl advice, since the TRO hearing, and I don't know what to do?
Anyone know if this is the same in NJ? Also, she is very upset that I am holding things up.
still luv her,
From your posting, I get the impression, probably wrong, that you are the WS. I am the WS and I would love some insight in how you can resolve your M. I mean, most of the MBers I have become aquainted with, it is the WS who wants the D. The BS wants to save it. So...if you are the WS, I would love tho chat more about it. If you are not, does anyone know of another MBer who is in my situ?
singleguy, LoveMyEx,
I hope (I know if it is God's Will) to beome as well versed in scripture and able to communicate the interpretation and application as well as you do. God Bless your Wisdom (which comes from the Holy Spirit).
S&C,
Again. Conrgatulations on the changes in your M. Thank you for service. God's Blessings.
May God show His Everlasting Mercy, Undying Love, and Awesome Power to us all as He takes our M's and uses them to shape us to His perfection.
Praise God,
TTSMM
