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Hi everyone,<BR>The weekend wasn't too bad, no screaming or yelling, very little nasty comments and he didn't pull the crying, poor me jazz. I had to laugh though, 'cause it was me that did the crying as he put on the cd with our song on it and as I heard those words, it just broke my heart so much at how things are not the way they were promised to me. I was able to tell him that since he felt that any coments I made were nagging and rebellion, that I had hoped him hearing the same thing from the marriage series by Tommy Nelson that we are involved in, would somehow sink through that women are this way and that they need these things, etc. He did seem to listen to it with different eyes last night and his only comment was that it was a good series. (Prior to this, comments were not kind, it was a "get men" conspiracy)My body has decided to roar into the premenopausal stage with a vengeance and I think the emotional exhaustion didn't help with my vulnerability stuff. (OKay Joy Nicole, what herbs?)<P>Just wanted to thank you all for praying. <P>

Thanks, Lizzie. I think you are right. I do believe at times he should know that the pain still exists deep down inside even though we never discuss the affair & seem to be getting along tremendously. I do sometimes wonder what he feels too because we usually go about life as if this never even happpened. We are planning on attending a Marriage Enrichment seminar at our church at the end of April. I am praying we will be able to find child care. We don't have any family or close friends I could impose upon here in the area and it's difficult to have a teenager watch kids from 9:00 am to 9:00 pm. I am hoping my H too will be receptive to some things I have tried to convey to him when they come from another or "authority". You know we never did get counciling and I certainly praise the Lord for the miracles He has worked in us and I can give credit to no one but Him. But if not for you ladies, Christian radio, and our reading, I am not sure I would have learned to be so faithful. Our Father has drawn me closer and my life will never be the same. I can now rejoice in the hard times I have endured. I don't know what the outcomes will be with all of you, but I am confident we will all walk closer with the Lord than before. There are times when I really wish we could connect personally - know more about each other and actually sit and have a cup of tea with you - but perhaps we will have to wait for that day in heaven. Won't it be neat to embrace? Just a thought for the day! Blessings, J

Hi guys!<P>Thanks, joynicole, for the list. <P>I didn't know several of those trigger foods. I can't help but think that all these immune system problems are stress-related. My eye membranes still flare up and fill with fluids with little or no provocation. It makes me look like an late-stage alcoholic, red, teary eyes and all.<P>Last night I couldn't sleep at all. I am still grieving the loss of my sweet Christian husband, but h. insists that that man (a boy when I met him) never was a believer, just a pretender. If that is true, how can I trust my instincts about anyone? <P>Realizing again that he actually refused lunch with me last year on Good Friday to have a nooner with her really scares me. I mean, the phone call from me didn't shake him, and he was able to sin so blatantly on the holiest of holy days.<P>I sobbed in his arms last night, and he just held me and said "I love you, you know." and "I wish I could take away your pain". <P>I know that several of the other ladies would cut off an arm to hear those things, yet, I am not content with this unbeliever.<P>Yesterday, after a great sermon, he said that he "just CAN'T believe, it takes faith that I just don't have -- there are too many unanswered questions, my intellect won't allow it".<P>My very ungodly reply: <P>"Don't give me that, it's a crock of BS. You believed before, with no more evidence than you have today. <P>You are just afraid to break down and admit you need to repent. If my continued love for you isn't evidence of God's grace, than you don't WANT to receive it. <P>We both know I haven't taken you back because I am so forgiving or good. I've done it because I know that God wants me to, because of the grace he's shown me; and you know it -- so don't give me that line, it won't fly.<P>Let me know how long you plan to play this game with God, cause I need to know when we are approaching lightning strike time."<P>He grinned and slapped my butt, and I shooed him out of the kitchen. <P>Sometimes I think my brother-in-law was right, I may have let him come home too soon. I did it for the kids, so they wouldn't find out.<P>time for a breathing treatment and algebra. I am three weeks behind my coursework. UGH<P>liz<P>------------------<P>"I have found the Pearl of Great Price"<BR><p>[This message has been edited by POGP (edited March 27, 2000).]

I lift Rootbeer up in prayer, Lord it appears to me that no one has heard from her today, God I ask you be with her,let her husband snap to reality and see what a blessed wife he has, let him cry out to you lord to save him from satins hands, Heal Rootbear and her family. IJN Amen

Hi ladies. See my post on ROOTBEER WHERE ARE YOU for an update on my situation. My prayer request this week is for the Lord to keep working in my life, changing me, molding me into the kind of loving, meek, kind, devoted Christian wife He intends for me to be, deliverance for my H from alcohol addiction and lust, affection to be a part of our marriage, my H to keep his counseling appt. with Steve Harley on Thursday, and H to go to the Batterers Intervention Program Counseling he is supposed to be attending. Also pray that his path be filled with born-again Christian men, and the Lord to place conviction upon his heart for his salvation. Thanks so very much.<BR>

I'm sitting here with the signed Waiver of Service for Divorce papers in my hands...<P>Even though I'm the one that initiated this, I feel so sad.<P>------------------<BR>Lor<BR>"Let love be genuine...hold fast to what is good; love one another." Rom 12:9-10

Lor,<P>Obedience doesn't always feel so good. <P>Your feelings are important to God. He knows you are sad and that you want much more out of your marriage then you have gotten so far.<P>God is leading you through this whole situation so you must trust even these feelings to Him. It is rather like faith, "it is the substance of things hoped for and the evidence of things not seen". If we had it in our hand we wouldn't need to have the faith to see it come to pass. You are in obedience doing what God has lead you to do.<P>It is the devil who is reminding you how awful you feel and how this all looks so hopeless. God says, your hope is built on nothing less then Jesus and His righteousness.<P>Start turning these thoughts and feelings over to God Lor, don't give the enemy a foot hold. You know if you do he will take it and run with it.<P>Father, right now help Lor to "cast all her cares upon You". Give her strength to continue in obedience. These are imaginings Father and we bring these to the Cross and ask you to crucify the natural man and allow the spiritual life to be born anew from Lor's act of obedience. Give her a sense of Your presence and peace. Encourage her heart today. IJN

Father, you gave us feelings, the opportunity to experience all parts of emotion, joy sadness, love, hate and so much more. You gave us Jesus and He provided examples of expressing those feelings. Father, Lor is so sad this day and we lift her up to you to comfort and to nurture. Like a mother hen, hide her tightly under your wing and provide the safety for her to feel all she is feeling right now. Losses are hard Father, loss of dreams, of love, of hope and expectations, but you know that as well. Comfort your daughter while she feels her pain. Gather her tears in the safety of your arms and when she has had a good cry, give her Your peace and wisdom that she may take whatever next step she feels you leading her to take. Thank you that you care so deeply about Lor. Show us how to support her while she goes through this tough time. IJN, Amen.<P>Just 'cause you have the paper Lor doesn't mean you have to complete the process unless you really feel led to do so. Hugging you from here.<P>SueB

Sue & Taj, thank you.<P>I called my lawyer's office, the legal secretary told me that they can just put the Waiver into my file there and they won't take the next step and file it at the courthouse until I decide for certain. <P>I really did not want to be the one to file. The lawyer had told me before that men in the sort of state my H has been in (betrayers, etc.) rarely file themselves. They usually make life so bad for the wife that she finally does it and then will try to turn around and redeem themselves by saying "she was the one, I wanted the marriage". I guess this is one of the reasons Guard's turnaround freaks me out so much. However, if he really wants the divorce--and he did sign the Waiver of Service--and I appear to have put it on hold, he'll have to do something. It's like waiting for the next shoe to drop. I want to rip the shoe out of his hand and fling it to the floor.<P>Of course, I could just be paranoid, but sometimes even paranoids have someone after them .<P>"fear not"--God

Husband filed for divorce Monday! <P>Prayers would be appreciated. I pick up the papers Friday and it will be final 20 days from then if I don't contest it.<P>TB

please pray for my husband...he is still aginst our marriage and in full swing with the OW.....that darn grass is still greener....I am just afraid that he will realize to late. I love him still after all that he has done and would still like my second chance that HE says everyone deserves....<P><BR>Amanda<P>------------------<BR>I will love my husband "Always & Forever" <P>thevancefamily@hotmail.com

Teddy Bear and Avance, I'll keep you both in my prayers today. Keep your eyes focused on the Lord, He will carry you through this trial.<P>Love to you<BR>AW