Thank you AW and SLW for the passages. I appreciate them very much. I want very much to be obedient. I have placed a lot of blame on my H. I'm trying to set down what doesn't belong to me and turn the rest over to God. I have complained bitterly about my H's actions to friends, family and counsellor. I'm trying to let go of that too. I've kept a gratitude journal for two months as of today. It was suggested in the book Simple Abundance. The book promises my life will be different after two months of this type of journalling. I'm offering praise in advance for that to happen. <P>My H treats me with indifference. I am in withdrawal. When I contemplate entering conflict by having a discussion on the pro's/con's of filing bankruptcy, I continue in silence. I tell myself, I want to have that discussion with a H who's interested in listening to my point of view. I don't think I have that. sigh I will also offer praise for this difficult time in my life. Admittedly, I offer this praise with less than full enthusiasm, but I remember reading a passage that instructs us to embrace our difficulties so that we may grow. I'm still a seed stuck in the mud, but I have faith that I will rise up and bloom someday. I'm prepared to give up my home, my marriage, and my occupation if I need to.

<BLOCKQUOTE><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><HR>sigh I will also offer praise for this difficult time in my life.<HR></BLOCKQUOTE><P>lonesome heart - you can be sure that God will bring good out of this for you if you look to Him and follow Him with your heart. He is in control, though circumstances sometimes don't look like it. Often He allows trying times for our good and His glory.<P>Don't know if I shared this anywhere here yet, but read this in a Newlsletter from E. Elliot:<P>"It is the Lover of Souls who hands me the cup of suffering, giving me the priceless privilege of learning fellowship with Him which can be learned in no other way".<P>When I keep my eyes on God I feel hopeful and know He will bring good out of it all for me (that good is often our inner character that He is building). I admit, though, my reasoning then starts in and wonders why I don't take a different path and if I am not just resigning myself to a situation. There are all kinds of voices around us telling us different things - "life is too short to not get what you want", "you deserve better", etc. But somehow deep down I know that the only way is God's way and He is faithful to not forsake me or leave me empty handed. He is good. "He will accomplish what concerns me". <P>Trust Him day by day and He will show you the next step. Your situation IS trying and hard. For now, continue with "being thankful" and finding praise in each day. The good work is happening inside of you. He will show you how to proceed if you do not get too anxious.<P>For the rest of the time until Easter, my desire is to be much more still (not so anxious about change coming about - and not so determined to "speak" about it to my husband. I am impatient. My voice is too loud. <P>"In trust and quietness is your strength"<P>That is my focus for the next weeks. I have to get out of the way so God can speak and do His mighty work.

hey, have I got a praise,<P>God still works his miracles.<BR>a couple of weeks ago I hurt my knee, I don't know what I did to it, but it felt like a spike was being pushed clear through it right under the knee cap, I iced it, put heat on it wrapped it and it all did nothing to help the pain. finally after 3 weeks of this unbareable pain and feeling like my knee would give out any minute I went to the Doctor to have it looked at. He told me I had tendonitis and strained my ligament in the back of my knee. He had me get a knee brace to wear and said if it wasn't doing better in 3-4 weeks to give him a call back and at that point we would set up x-rays to see the extent of the damage.<P>Keep in mind I only went to the Doctors last Monday, just a week ago.<P>well wendsday night I went to church and the subject was on healing, so after ward when the called for all those that need a touch of healing to be prayed for I responded. They prayed for my knee and then I went home. At home my knee started Iching something feirce, so I took of my knee brace and soon after went to bed, when I woke up in the morning my knee didn't hurt one bit! so I decided to have faith and didn't put the brace back on. it is now almost a week later from that day and I still haven't had to wear the brace or had any pain in my knee! Hallelujhu, God healed my knee.<P>It just reminds me that God is the great phyesician and he can heal anything, even our broken hearts and tattered marriages.<BR><P>------------------<BR>Irene

Hallelujah!!!! <P>Praising God for your healing S&L!! Yes, He is the Great Physician, and He can and WILL heal our marriages.<P>