Hello desertrose,<P>I had a good day too. Even though he told me that last Thursday the OW left a message on his voicemail at work. Of course too early in the morning for him to be at work. But she is playing games, he said she said basically that she hope his relationship was going fine and that if he ever wanted to know anything about the OC to just call. He said he did not call, and really is having doubts about the OC being his because of a couple of things that were said and actions that he remebered by the OW. He said unless a paternity test is done, No call or contact.<P>I did ask if he had any desire or thoughts of the OC. He said No. I asked him if down the line he would would he tell me, he said yes. <P>Besides all this we been having good holiday times. We were at his grandmothers. <P>Today he is picking up his kids from another marriage and heading down to his mothers for the day and said they will stay down there tonight to spend some time.<P>Why is it I worry so much? I also am tired for being scared and on pins and needles. Why? I try to channel into other things, becaue too much time on hands give to too much thought. I thought maybe joining a jazzercise group. I like to dance and might as well get good exercise. <P>He staying away tonight is scary.<P>I going to go to the movies tonight with my daughters and a couple of their friends, this will preoccupied for a bit, what about tonight laying in bed all alone? Lonely already<P>Any words of encouragement will help, you seem to headed in a positive directions.<P>Thanks