Dear sad & alone,<BR>i am so happy to hear you are doing better. i never imagined things could get worse, they did. this will be so hard to believe what i am about to say. Today, i found my husband in a hotel room with another man. (the man had just left) right now i am completely numb. I have no emotions, nothing - i found various "toys" and the guy (who i know) had left his underwear. of course my husband denied anything went on and actually told me they were just playing cards. i am so stuck as i have no money and a small infant. as i said previously, i had a miscarriage one month ago. I haven't even had time to grieve over this as he had the 4 month affair with the woman - now this!!! i realize now that i have been living a lie with this man. he married me for my green card and to show the world that he is a "respectable family man"!!!! image to him is everything as he is a director of a company. my heart and soul are destroyed and i don't know what will become of me emotionally. now, i fear that he may have given me aids as he gets so drunk he never thinks about protection. he blames everything on the alcohol - the alcohol turned him gay!!!! i know you are in pain and i hope we will get thru this some how. when, i do not know. i am in such a dark, dark place right now and see no light at the end of it.<BR>stay strong sad, i will say a prayer for you tonight