Sorry all, this is Initdeep. Felt like time for a change, I am no longer " in it deep" I think/hope we have moved on from that.
Regards

Ian,

good to see the changes affecting even your login.
I am sure your heart will be racing again for your Fishwife. You are lucky, you were so intensely in love before, and this was with her, I hope you share this with her too. I understand what you mean talking about you two before and after the boys, my kids are older and I know empty nest is unevitable part of family life, but -you know- we had our children early so I hoped we will enjoy travel etc when we hit 40, while we are still young and in love...
I guess I grieve the loss of my dreams as well.

Warmest thoughts for both of you ( my envy stays with me)

I am still FBOW, and we are not talking. And yesterday was 3 months since D-day. I had really hard time getting thru yesterday. Because during D-day converstion I asked about our January highpoints and was told that a lot has changed since then in three months.
Apparently nothing must have changed recently to warrant another coversation.

FBOW, thanks for the post. I am really sorry you are having a hard time of it. But hey, on the up side I am 31 and the OW was 44. Age means very little so you are just a spring chicken, enjoy yourself, Plan A to death regardless of your H's activities. If he sees you really having fun and getting on with the good things in life he may feel that he wants a part of that again. Easier said than done to stay happy and focused, but the more you do the easier it should become. I am not speaking from experience just repeating what I have heard here. We are hoping to go away again this weekend. The breaks are good and you should see if you can get away for a couple of days. Unwind and chill-out it may help you to think clearer. Regards and good luck.