He was here earlier today. I told him I will not go back where we were and did not want to talk to him until he had proven that he would stop drinking and be in a program to help him. He would not leave. My son came and I saw them crying together outside. My son wants me to talk to him but I can't. Idle talk is all I can do. They ask me what I wanted and I told them to be by myself. Finally after sitting at the locked door for an hour they left. I am trying but I cannot face anyone. I stay so cold, shivering all the time. I really need to get control of myself again.