Jaref,
I think you got the makings of a good plan started. I will tell you that withdrawal will last A LOT longer than a few weeks, but I think you understand that.
However, having ended the affair and established NO CONTACT with OM is going to be a really big thing. It will also be a very hard thing for you to do. We ALL know that.
So here comes the other part. You need to leave your job. OM works with you and you two cannot be in any contact. I cannot emphasize this enough. So you MUST quit your job. But, this does help serve a purpose. You can work on your web business, and you now have the chance to be home when you want. At least there is a bit of a silver lining here, right? <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" />
So, let's see we have you ending it with OM. Moving somewhere for a short while, getting some support to help you, and leaving your job. Then gradually coming home to live with your H. At which time you will need to tell him and then the REAL work starts.
Do we have sort of a plan laid out? I am thinking so, but it will be a gutsy move Jaref. Very Gutsy, but these things do require Guts. The positive thing I see, is that your H seems to be a man with a generous spirit. I know you have already tested it severely already, but you do have something to work with in him. That is a very good thing and offers hope that this can work out.
Jaref, I know you are afraid, and you have good reason, but it is clear to you I think that something has to change. So keep working on your plan, keep posting here. I am sure you get more suggestions, and really work on lining up some support. I think that is very key to you making it out of this A this time. Honesty, ending the affair, and support. I think you understand the first, you are working on your plan for the second, and getting the third lined up is something you should be doing now.
Hope something I have said helps.
God Bless,
JL
