I do believe the Biblical stance of adultery. God does not love divorce. He hates it. However, I have been in counseling and have discovered that from Christian counselor that BS who are divorced b/c of adultery are forgiven. God does not leave us w/no way out of a lose/lose situation to stay solitary our whole life, but does give an option. Read LMBT and the dissertation in it about remarriage and divorce. Sometimes your WS is not going to come back. Despite our best efforts and great faith. Are we to stay in continual hold position for rest of life waiting for them to decide to return? No. I do expect a miracle and until I am either spent so physically and emotionally that I cannot continue any longer, I will continue to persevere. In LMBT, tells if someone comes to ask your forgiveness, you MUST forgive them seventy times seven. What if they don't? Yes, we must have the greatest of faith now, and expect the best. To encourage me now, I have read Prayer of Jabez book and devotional. Will not cross over to D until absolutely faced w/it and pray that never happens. <p>No word yet from H. Going to check and see if H has read them yet. So far no. See you guys later. God bless you.

Here are some scriptures that I think may be encouraging to you:
I Cor 13:7-10
I Cor 7:13-15
Romans 8:28<p>There are others that inspire me that I would like to share with you. Do you go to church regularly? Do you read scripture daily? I go to church twice a week, but since this tragedy, I have been reading the bible more and what it says about marriage and the blessings given to those who obey His words. He keeps me sane and together.<p>It would probably be a good idea to let your husband initiate contact from now on. When you do talk to him, do as you have been, speak kindly and assure him that you love him. Maybe if you were to get a job, that would help you get through the days and make you more confident and plus you could meet more people.<p>Also, be careful of taking advice from "Christians" even counselors, because to man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible (Luke 1:37). Some may discourage you or make you think that a divorce is the only option left, don't buy into it, you already know the reason for divorce FORNICATION only! so, don't make it an option, it's not-just pray and give it to God!

Yes, with the exception of my trip home, i do attend a church here w/son regularly. Son loves to go and asks when we are going. Also go to separated support group there. Am quite familiar w/verses and in fact minister spoke right before I left to go home on Romans 8:28. All things to work together for good to us who love Him. Am deeply spiritual and am in prayer regularly each day, many times more than once. Grew up in home where I went to church, and went to protestant school k-12. Been a Christian since 2nd grade. <p>Not going to debate b/c I know God is right. He hates divorce. Do go over some of the MB principles, b/c you're much newer than I, although I've only been here several weeks before you and I find it too confusing to mix up different approaches. Am not going to work until I feel much better, as my profession is medical and I work and will work emergency patients and maybe take call again. Job doesn't allow for those in the emotional shape I'm in now. Not yet anyhow. Am working on getting stronger. <p>Tonight no call came from H. I had hoped for it, but BINGO was wrong to have gotten any hope up, no matter how little it was. Will see what tomorrow brings. That's how it's going now. Day by day, hour by hour. I try and spend as little as energy as possible dwelling anymore on the things I cannot change about my M. That is what Plan A, which I am in, is all about. You work on you and do the best you can do, and only that which you can do. Realize to ask God to give me wisdom and when I am afforded opportunities to see or speak with H, to be as loving and kind and friendly as I could be. To me, MB is directly proportional w/my faith. Please understand that we are on a and b topics here. B is to protect you until WS comes or chooses to return. Read up on that especially and what love busters are. Almost have to do that daily. <p>I pray that your day(s) to Sebrea and all my friends here: Orchid, redhat, etc., are doing well. You are in my prayers today and have even been incorporated into my life's Jabez prayer. <p>My day has been good, yet very disappointing as I get ready to turn in. Hopefully in a few more days, I can get a real grip on only knowing that I am responsible for my reactions only to H. I have released my H into God's loving arms. Goodness, I did not know that this would become a day to day battle that I would have to fight. For me, it's become faith vs. despair. See counselor Mon. morning. Going to 11 am service w/son tomorrow if he stops sneezing and runny nose. Has head cold. Pray he feels better. Gets grumpy when he's sick. Little guy loves to go to his S.S. class and make things. My fridge is full of "lovely" toddler art. I am so proud of him. He is a brave little one to be going through this. Can remember from my childhood that my father helped me learn to read and was such a good storyteller, telling us bedtime stories each night. However, i do read to him and each night son looks forward to them. Wish he had his dad here to do some too. Still can't bring out reading the Christmas books. Started crying the other day when I got them together. This is hard. <p>God bless all out here on this electronic city.

Hello all.<p>Doing as good as I can. Couldn't go to church this am b/c son's nose was soo runny. No fever today, a little last night. SS is strict about no colds policy. So decided we would try something different tonight. Will watch "The Bible" movie on tv. <p>Nothing at all heard from H. Zippo. Usually too much silence on a weekend is a bad thing w/him, although H is very busy w/work right now. Checked stats of my emails to him and haven't been read, although H said he had work alot at office this weekend and did have trouble w/emails and the computer system. <p>Did something different today. Decided to start a log/journal. I am writing briefly down what's happening, and am ending with my prayer requests. Want to see how God's positively moving in my life. Got idea from Jabez prayer book. This way, I will at least become more thankful to God and not neglect the little miracles around me. On good note, got on the scales. Pigged out last night (depressed) and still am down 8 lbs. Going to attempt to resume workouts this next week at gym. Also, made a list on back of prayer requests and wrote down my H's EN and started thinking about that too. How God could help show me how to meet them w/o daily contact and how to really meet them when w/him. <p>Please pray that H is away from OW finally. I again cannot validate info I got concerning their "supposed demise of A" from a third party back home. I want to know and do not want to ask him as that's a major LB in plan A. I just pray that A has finally died a natural death and that H lets me in just a bit, if he is indeed going through withdrawal. H has attempted to end A w/this person several other times and has ended up speaking and seeing her again. Pray for OW too. That she finally see God's wisdom in her not continuing this A and that she move toward a bright future w/a single man. Pray for my son and me today. We are enjoying each other's company and he is so precious. Seems like he grew a whole inch while he was away w/H in Disneyworld. Son has not mentioned any "lady" which was or might have been on the trip so OW going probably didn't happen. Son is just out of toddlerhood and is ok at telling you about something that is new or wrong. Usually comes out and tells me when he meets a new friend.<p>Going to see counselor tomorrow at 11. Pray also that H decides to finally give it up and call her and make appt. like he said he would do. <p>I hope this post finds you all out here well and blessed. I am so thankful for you! God bless and keep your armor on.

Peachy,
Thanks for your prayers, WW stays on Friday and suprisingly she came back home again on Saturday right after class. We work on this computer to upgrade them with CD Burner & 60G drive. Unfortunately, I LB'ed according to her by logging to MB & posts ... she just took off 2 AM this morning. I just watched her walk out and told her good night. I just bit my tounge and hold my tear ... I will be here hanging and Thy will be done. I am throwing stones one pieces at the time to build a bridge. She will realize later that she has no excuse on complaining about M.<p>I am glad you start post to others too, it will help you a lot. Meanwhile, fill up your schedule, get tickets to great performances, get 2 tickets, if H wants to go he is welcome but otherwise go with your girl freind. Make him off balance and also make yourself back into social life. Even a ski trip or mini vacation w/ son and invite H, if he doesn't want to go, too bad, all the fun is yours. I plan a week long ski trip at mt. Bachelor at the end of the year, WW is still sitting on the fence about it. I reserved it anyway w/ or w/o WW. I will have fun w/ my 2 D and I will have more time to lurk around MB during holiday nights.<p>You are stronger now, keep moving and don't let it slide. [img]images/icons/grin.gif" border="0[/img] .

Hang in there GA, i journal practically everyday, it is very refreshing and allows you to see how your thought patterns change from week to week.<p>i am familiar with the mb principles, but am more excited about the restorem.org ministries, because it is all biblically based. i like posting here because it gives me an out and a way to relate to others who are in a similar situation.<p>God bless, and I will keep you in my prayers.

Thank you Sebrea, for your prayers and kindness. I actually posted on the prayer requests there at website. I prayed for the people on the list today in fact. Please read my other post above, as it is current and now. Need PRAYER WARRIOR for me and family b/w now and friday. You are also appreciated and prayed for too. God bless you.