Orchid,<p>Well we did go to the wedding. Well we had a good time untill a relative of mine told me a few things about my H and ow. (When we were in the bathroom). As the night went on and I continued to drink. What ended up happening was I started to think about my H and the ow. And YES, I totally went nuts and ended up having a fight with my H. I pulled his hair & scratched him and told him alot of nasty things. This happened on the way home in the car. I know I was wrong and I did say that I was sorry this morning. <p>But now H said that he can't take things and he is going to leave. He said that things aren't getting better and they never will. I really did a number this time.... I told him that I wanted to stay married and that I loved him. Now what do I do? H said he would not leave untill after my sons birthday, which is in 2 weeks. How can I make up for doing such a terrible thing? I may have just pushed my H out the door. I asked my H if he wanted a D and he said what other choice does he have. Now I'm even worse then I was last week. <p>WHAT SHOULD I DO????<p>Lost

2long,<p>That is great. Don't push things. It hasn't been that long. Me and my H were doing o.k. But as your read in the message to Orchid, I did something really evil. I don't know what came over me but I didn't mean to hurt my H. I feel really really bad..........<p>2long, What should I do? This morning I told H alot of things and he said that I should go see a psychiatrist (is that how you spell it)? I told him that I wanted to kill myself and not only did my DAD leave (Passed away) me but now he wanted to leave me to. I also told him how I felt, hurt and so very sad. I told him that I know things can get better if only he would let me. He said that he was tired of everything. And he is tired of trying. WHAT CAN I DO NOW?????? I know I was so wrong. I only have 2 weeks before my H leaves. But another thing happened in the midst of this ordeal, H told me that he loved me. <p>HELP ME............. <p>Lost

Lost, <p>Sit down and type your H a letter. Indicate that flashbacks of H and OW sent you to a limit that was hard to handle and that included your reaction to him. Let him know that you love him but these flashbacks are hard on your heart and need his help working through it. Rebuilding trust in each other along with reassurance will definitely help your situation. Let him know that he can help you. <p>L.

Orchid,<p>I will. I think it maybe to late though. H has been acting distant. Understandable..........<p>I have 2 weeks to deposit love units. I am going to try my hardest.<p>Lost