Hi PB... sorry I didn't respond last night. Was another rough one, another blow up, another story for another day. I ought to update my original thread, but I think I said somewhere else that I'm not quite up to doing that yet.
</font><blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr /><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">I think I still have the door to our M still ajar but it is SO HARD because he is so detatched. Does anyone have any suggestions haow to deal with total shutdown? Other than patience?
</font><hr /></blockquote><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">Just try to work on yourself too. Do things to make you happy or things that can take your mind off the situation for a bit. I've started to develop some personal goals. Like one is I'm bumping up my travel a bit for work. Will be traveling for a few weeks... at least, I get to see some friend/coworkers/clients I really enjoy and then do something really productive. Hopefully, I'll get some good writing done from that. Also trying to learn some new stuff. I'm not very mechnically inclined--imagine someone who's over 40 and hardly ever touched a screwdriver. So, started small by putting together some DIY shelf kits. Went ok. This stuff at least keeps me focused--but then I'll lose it again for a while. The ups and downs are beginning to even out, except for when Dragonboy will exit his cave, often on my prompting too. So, I gotta figure that one out. (Call H dragonboy because he just breathes fire when he leaves that cave of his at times, then he retreats further back into it. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Mad]" src="images/icons/mad.gif" /> <img border="0" title="" alt="[Eek!]" src="images/icons/shocked.gif" /> <img border="0" title="" alt="[Confused]" src="images/icons/confused.gif" /> Not to mention, I was a dragonlady when this started too... the resentment, frustration, and anger just piled up. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Frown]" src="images/icons/frown.gif" /> )
Make yourself more interesting to your H, too. Maybe revamp your wardrobe (know that's hard... money's tight in this situations)?
They're soooo foggy in these affairs and in these MLCs. And the detachment is weird. Terribly weird. It's like OK... you and the kids have been in my life for XX years... later, don't need or want you any more. Bam!!! Overnight it seems like.
But, the more I look back, there were warning signs and I didn't notice them except for a rising feeling of anxiousness on my part. Handled it badly. I've been slowly working to reconstruct that. Guess ya gotta keep your eye on the ball with any R, and just sometimes wish it were a slow pitch!!!
Oh well... was just touching base with you, see how you were doing.