I am so sorry to hear that you are going through this... I rarely come back to the site, it is too painful to see what we all went through and how similar all of our stories are.
You were such a support to me a year ago, and I will pray that you get through this period of your life, and that you come to see a better, brighter day... with or without your H, YOU deserve to be happy.
I will be praying for you and your sons....

Hi Lost- hope you aren't so lost anymore!

yes things are a big bummer right now. but I am praying and hopeful. HATE doing things that I know I have to but also know they cause hurt to h-truly co-dependent also I know........

h called today -I didn't answer-h left no message so I am sure its because I gave his phone number out and it was an angry thing......having to clean up/deal with his OWN mess instead of me handling it.

its all so weary-ing. no plans for the weekend- what $$ I've got MIGHT last thru til the next pay. good thing the kids feed themselves! but the bills are caught up til the next late installment.... <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" /> and I feel better having straightened that out and having utilities that operate.....geez I am not kidding whatta mess. now h has switched his mail and he'll be getting the bills.....so who knows how the next installment plan will happen??????? hopefully I'll sleep before then.

God will provide.

thanks for checking in with me- feel free with plan B advice- it sure is difficult.

PEACE OUT...and IN!!!!