SDS-<P>You sound so good these days.<P>I am tryning to just take it as it comes. It gets so exhausting, though.<P>I absolutely agree that THEY are the ones that need to come to realize what is happening, and they are the ones the need to WANT to get help.<P>I, too, think that our H's are depressed and confused. Maybe he is trying to ask for help, in the only way he knows how to right now.<P>I'll keep holding on as long as I can. <P>Thanks for the prayers and hugs. They are ALWAYS welcome. Right back atcha <P>Cheryl

Cheryl,<P>I still have bad days or rather bad times, but since I made through the holidays I am doing better. I decided that no matter what I will be alright. But I would be a lot better with H. I too see some reaching out maybe not to me just yet but to other members of his family and that is a good sign. <BR>SOmething happened right after Christmas. I was at my sister's. Eveyone was doing their thing and I was in the living room having a quiet alone time reading and enjoying the fire in the fireplace. Out ot the blue I stop reading and it was almost like a voice said to me everything will be alright. Then I had a calm and peaceful feeling come over me. Ever since then I have felt better. Like said earlier I still have some bad times but they don't pull me down as they did before. Of course, I don't know that this means H will be back although I would like to think it does. But it has given me a peace of mind I haven't had in a very long time. Lots of prayers and {{{HUGS}}}}<P>------------------<BR>di<P>