Steph,
<br>On the outside, it appears my wife is feeling something. I am very concerned that she is only saying that and going through the motions. She has lived her life in the expectations of her mom and family, and this might be another expectation she feels she HAS to do. I will not know the outcome for quite some time. I hope I have as much resolve as you. Despite what you say, I know that you will not give up easily. Best wishes.

Bill,
<p>Good days and bad days. The one thing that makes this so hard is not really knowing what is going on in their minds. Thank you for you kind words. One peace of advice. Being in the situation it is very easy to start to lose your love. Don't let that happen. Keep remembering the good times. Praying as always.
<p>Steph

Hi Bruce!
<p>I'm sorry, but I can't tell you how successful phone conseling was for me, 'cause I haven't done it yet. I too, was trying to get a feel for it, yea or nay, from the others here.
<p>I'm also wondering how to bring my wife into that kind of conseling set-up, but I guess if I don't make the call, I'll never find out. (Why do I sound like a commercial?)
<p>I don't know if she'll go for counseling either. The only time I brought it up, she said no. So, whatever I do, it'll probably be just me.
<p>Doug

Bill,
<p>I'm doing pretty good. I made an emergency appointment with my therapist after that last breakdown and I am now taking some medicine to help me. Everyone calls this a roller coaster ride but last week it seemed that my ride was only going down hill. Today it seems to be on the rise. I go walking in the mornings and usually come home to a house full of work. When I got home today he had bathed the kids and fed them breakfast. He proceeded to get ready for work but didn't leave until I got a chance to shower. I usually don't get a chance until noon. He even took my oldest to school. I'm sitting here wondering where that came from. We haven't really talked since he told me to get out. I keep telling myself to take a deep breath and not get my hopes up, but i wonder if not getting my hopes up is what is keeping us down. Should I just let go and throw myself into excitement that things are improving or do I protect myself and possible hinder progress?
<p>I would think that these last few weeks of holidays has been hard for the both of you. Holidays are such a reminder of family and how things should be. It's also hard to be in public and pretend that everything is ok. I think this part bugs me the most. I had a good friend tell me how jealous of my marriage she was. I just told her that things are not always as they appear and to be happy for what she has. I try to by happy with what I have but most days now feel like a deserve more. I can understand what your rabbi was saying.
<p>Hope you are doing ok today.
<br>Steph