Thanks Chris & everyone for being here for me. Ever just get tired of telling the same old story. Nothing I've tried has worked and I just want to get over this.<P>I thought today about calling an old boyfriend (from high school - prom date [img]images/icons/smile.gif" border="0[/img]) because the last time I ran into him at Best Buy he said he was divorced and was dealing with seeing his kids, working etc. I know I don't want to get involved with this guy, no doubt at all, it just would be nice to disappear back in time for a while and talk to someone about the days prior to meeting my H. I grad high school on June 4th and meet my H on July 8th. Haven't been out with anyone since. I have had a few male friends, mostly guys who have helped me with network stuff or support reps etc but all have been married and I've always been married (thought it was happily [img]images/icons/frown.gif" border="0[/img])<P>Sorry to stop mid thought, just realized it was 9 and kids need baths, etc. <P>Will continue this melodrama later.....<P>Stay tuned<P>PP