NPIGA:
So much of what is in your post about "Deucy" is so familiar.
My ex is involved with a man who has been living with his GF for 10yrs (a marriage by any definition), but flirts at parties with men openly (close dancing, etc), seen at clubs with other man(at least one other), tells me about someone who was interested in her, but discussed him in terms of qualities why she shouldn't gp out with him, NOT that she was already involved!etc, etc, etc.
She told me the other day that she has given her BF an ultimatum to move out from with his GF, that they are only "friends" now, but I heard via another source that they had a HUGE row, because he was supposed to stay over the night ( with my exW), and he said that he couldn't!
I have confirmation that she had an abortion last month ( the pathologist's bill came to my adress), and I doubt she has told him. She goes out clubbing at least twice a week, sometimes 3.
All this, and I STILL feel a longing for her whenever I spend too much time in her company.
Some time ago, she spoke to common friends of ours, and when asked how she felt about me, since they knew (at the time) that I would have taken her back instantly, she said "well, he's not trying hard enough". Now she had made it abuntantly clear on NUMEROUS occassions that there was NO possibility of us getting back together. So now the other day, she says "i wouldn't KNOW if there's no possibility of it....there's just a lot I have to deal with from the past..."
She tells me this NOW? I don't even know if I'd seriously consider it after all that has happened, even since we've been divorced. I also don't know if this is sincere, or just her "falling back" on me when things go awry in her life. At the SLIGHTEST hint of me withdrawing into a PLAN B -type of relationship with her, she literally goes frantic in her efforts to have me back in her life. She won't leave me be. She finds excuses to contact me all the time. This drives me batty, until I give in, and be all chummy again with her. The problem is, when that happens, I start to get wistful & sentimental, and maybe a bit hopeful.
With all this in mind, I don't know i'd still even really WANT her back. Besides, I don't even know if she's serious. I also see glimpses of who she used to be. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Confused]" src="images/icons/confused.gif" />
Go figure
muzohead
