Most of my life I also felt infidelity must be some human reproductive thing that we go through.
I am committed to my morals and values. I have pride in who I am am how I conduct myself. That also keeps me from straying.
I understood that sometimes you can give 100% and sometimes it's 10%. No one is perfect all the time. Does society today just expect too much from each other too fast? I feel we must always continue to educate ourselves on being in a relationship. Whether it be a book or a listening to the tribulations of a good friend. The world doesn't owe us crap. We make our own reality. Tomorrow it can all be taken away in a blink of an eye, why do we bank on the future so much and neglect today? I have now also realized never to live for anyone but myself again. My life was his. I did everything to make things work. I didn't get much in return. yet I still have this stupid overwhelming love feeling. Perhaps I'm predisposed to some kind of depression.
Why does society think the grass is always greener on the other side? Should we raise our children so they are prepared for divorce? I never expected the life I have now. I still believe in this stupid fairytale about staying together forever. Now I have feelings of guilt, shame, rejection, and embarrassement.
Time for me to go to sleep!

there are a lot of people out there that will not cheat. I have never done it and never will, morally it is wrong.

Because I would never cheat I know that not everybody does. It's that simple.

Sadly, many people don't respect themselves enough to really evaluate their actions and make decisions as if they don't understand the consequenses or use a second relationship to "get out of" a sour one. I'm baffled that so many people can't seem to leave for the sake of themselves and their partner before looking for a more suited/desirable partner.