We'll see. I'm still bitter and jaded. But it may be my defense mechanism kicking in.

I have several drawbacks as marraige material. And at this point, it's probably good I'm not counting on remarrying.

AGG-

How about this thought to ponder...

You were given a life experience by your higher power. From that expereience, you were expossed to love, betrayal, hate, anger, fear, sadness, and a whole entire rangee of other emotions I have not named.

Why were you given these expereiences?

Of course to get you to wake up and see what life eis all about. Your feelings of self worth are based on how yoy think someone else perceives you. Until your epiphany, you viewed yourself in that context, not the context that you now have.

My point in stating this is that you have gone and walked through hell and back. You have faced your worst nightmares and instead of breaking you, it has really led you to a place where you have flowered. In your journey, you have shared your sstory with so many others out there either just starting out on that road, or traveling along with you through there own trials.

God gave you this "gift" and you have affected so many others out there. Please see the beauty in how your struggles have inspired others. It isn't about what you did or didn't do to please your straying partrner...it's how you camme through this with your dignity and pride.

You're sso beautiful and you don't realize it at timees because your pain hides the truth from you.

Epiphanies are so great.