Oh, I'm sure anxiety attacks and flaming Dr. Peppers can't coexsist. I didn't go that route, I just drank a little, didn't get blotto. Just eased the edge a little, didn't pound it with a sledge hammer. I was tempted a few times but I knew the morning after would not be good.

Time does change everything. Had you known when he was 37 that you wanted him to stay that way I guess you should have taken him to a taxidermist and had him stuffed. Are you considering a R with someone you already don't want to grow old with?

Hi DJ,

I don't appreciate missing what I've missed...

<img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" />

See ya,

Laura

<small>[ August 30, 2004, 10:56 PM: Message edited by: laura_lee ]</small>

LL,
I'm afraid I'm not familiar enough with your story to completely follow but if there was cheating involved, I know you're in pain. Maybe there is another 37 year old that would make a reasonable substitute and wouldn't have the cheating gene. Easy on the flaming Dr. Peppers, fun while it lasts but a temporary solution to the problem.

Hi DJ,

Just so you know...

I've had one flaming Dr. Pepper in my life - cause WIWH told me such a drink exists. I had to try it!

I'm not much of a drinker. Maybe 1, maybe 2 drinks when I drink - which is very rarely.

But if we ever have an MB get-together... WIWH and I are going to have a flaming Dr. Pepper - I think. lol

Thanks for the concern.

L

Didn't mean to imply that there was a problem with the Dr. Peppers or that was even an issue. I May have to try one myself, just in case I get invited to the get together, I might want a heads-up on what I would be getting into.

</font><blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr /><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial"> Maybe there is another 37 year old that would make a reasonable substitute and wouldn't have the cheating gene </font><hr /></blockquote><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">I'm 35 and make one mean drink <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" />

A get together??
Anytime any of you guys are heading east, let me know!

Jeff, I know a little about Laura's story and she gets me confused at times too.
<img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" />

WIWH

WIWH:
</font><blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr /><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial"> Jeff, I know a little about Laura's story and she gets me confused at times too </font><hr /></blockquote><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">I think the key word here is "she". We will be forever doomed to confusion. If we did have the capability to understand we probably wouldn't have much need for this forum.

hey WIWH & DJ,

my story is confusing to most people. my close gal pals understand. women are emotional, sensitive, and intuitive. men are logical.

in general terms.

so what makes sense to us emotionally, sensitively, and intuitively... it just doesn't make sense logically.

but it's still... "true"... and it makes sense to us.

i left. i haven't been back. i'm preparing to move home.

i almost bought a house back in that town. home to me. i'm moving back for my children who were raised there, friends that i miss, and just that feeling that i am home.

then i hesitated. i didn't want to have to deal with this again.

i'm going to buy a house now. i'm going to do what is best for me and my family -- and not run from other things.

we'll see one another around town again

don't try to understand us, dj -- accept that you can't -- and just love and appreciate us and our differences. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" />

never try to figure us out. leave us our mystery...

that's how logical men can relate to emotional, sensitive, intuitive women... in general terms.

L

<small>[ August 30, 2004, 10:58 PM: Message edited by: laura_lee ]</small>

I don't give up easily but I threw in the towel when it comes to figuring y'all(women)out a long time ago. Sometimes the difference is wonderful, sometimes y'all are a pain in the derriere.

May things work out for you and the one the way you wish.

Hi DJ,

Well stated. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" />

UPDATE

Experienced "anxiety" at the thought of moving back to the town I consider to be my home this a.m.

Coming out of withdrawal. There's a price to be paid for... vulnerability.

Laura

<small>[ August 30, 2004, 10:59 PM: Message edited by: laura_lee ]</small>

Guess this is a journal for friends at MB of mine.

Whew!

It's good to have friends! Talked to 2 girlfriends from my town. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" />

Told one of them I was overwhelmed at going back to face this scenario... don't want a repeat.

So she was like... tonite we're going to hang around town. So we're going to the store... going for a drink at a local pub... (just one or two... no flaming Dr. Pepper's)... etc... to "acclimate" me. Break it down into small manageable parts so I don't get my eyes on on something I see as TOO BIG to handle and feel overwhelmed.

It's good to have friends... taking my eyes OFF the problem... and walking with me besides.

God is good! All the time!

Coming out of withdrawal from my town... with friends.
L

Laura, I could understand how it would be tough to go back home and face everything. You haven't lived where you are for very long but from what I recal, you were quite excited about the move.

How far did you move?

You don't need to move back to keep your friends!

I've been away from my home for about a year now. I do miss being around everything that I grew up with.

The funny thing is, I live down the street from where I was born. Haven't lived there for about 34 years.

I see this as a chance to go new places and meet new people. I just need to start doing that.

WIWH

Hi WIWH,

I haven't lived in "the town" that I left because "the one's" behavior hurt me for, let's see, as I think about it... 4-1/2 years or so?

When I moved recently, I did a "lateral move" in my town of exile.

Now, I'm looking at going back where I know, in my heart, I belong.

I guess home is where the heart is. I felt "driven out" of where I really wanted to be.

How 'bout you? <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" />

Can you relate?

When I did the "lateral move"... I actually "backed out" of moving back to "the town".

Work and financial circumstances have been "shaken up"... and I have reasons to buy a home in "the town"... instead of procrastinating further.

There IS a God... and I know it's one of those things like "you can pay me now or you can pay me later". <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" /> When it's God moving someone... He sometimes creates increasing impetus to move us by "shaking up" other areas of our lives.

There are logical reasons to make a move now instead of waiting several months more.

I'm a "friend-keeper".

I don't give up my friends. They're MUCH too important, special, and valuable to me. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" /> (Including WIWH and others here.)

I've kept my friends from "the town".

"The town"... needs me.

Talk to you later,

L

Laura,

I wasn't driven out by the same means as you.As you and many others here know, I didn't have much choice and had very limitted options. I was pretty much exiled against my will.

OK, Here is my opinion!

If it is necessary for you to head back to "the town" for what ever reason, find a mid point that will meet your needs for the move.

Head "Near the town" but retain your exile. You've been shaken before and have rolled with the punches. Meet the shaker half way and continue to grow without going back.

You also have to think about the others that a move like this would affect.

But on the other hand, If this is where your heart realy wants to be, then don't let yourself be driven out. Be where you want to be. Let "the one" and all the others be the shaken ones.

Laura Lee cannot be driven away by increasing impetus or shaken by the hurtfull actions of "the one"

Laur Lee is coming back to "the town" if you don't like it then find your own town. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" />

Laura, You are welcome in my town any time <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" />

WIWH

WIWH,

You are the best!!!

I'm going to keep looking back on your words as I move to... "the town".

And any woman who would exhibit such poor judgment as to exile you... well, she's missing out.

I'd love to have you in "my town". <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" />

I saw a house last night - for sale by owner - on my excursion to "my town".

I was going to buy a different house - and it didn't come together according to the terms I had pretermined. That was one of the reasons I didn't move back to "the town" and made a lateral move.

Well, one thing that home was lacking, for my kids and for my friends, was a built-in swimming pool. Guess what?!! This one has a built-in swimming pool... I can see "the church" from my yard (like I could in my last home in "the town")... and it has a lot of features that sound really good to me.

And, it's less money!! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" /> I'm already all pre-approved for mo' money, mo' money, lol. My mortgage guy told me this week that if I find a different house - he can have me closed in two weeks. But this one already has a professional appraisal done - so maybe it will be one week! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" />

I have an appointment to see it Monday nite. So we'll see if it's something I really want to buy. It's "around the bend" from my other house... walking distance to my bestest friend from "the town"... and a "step up" from the last home I owned in "the town".

I know there's a God in Heaven (that's a line of a song I love)... and He's watching over me.

So, He's in control. If it's the right house at the right time... it will happen!

Went to "the pub" last night. Things went well. Pleasant, enjoyable, relaxing. Sadly, I knew it would be a kinder, gentler atmosphere at "the pub" than at "the church" in "my town". lol

THAT's a testimony!

You really are the best. If I buy the house... are you going to come for a visit and swim in my pool? <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" /> No, I'm not propositioning a married man - friends at MB'ers. WIWH is a friend. I'd make sure there were prissy chaperones present!! lol

Talk to you later,

Laura

Laura Lee,

Thanks for the invite. I'd love to swim in your pool <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" />

And no I'm not propositioning a revirginized unmarried woman, just love the idea of having a good time with a friend <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" />

Besides, by the time I could get there I wouldn't be married anymore anyway <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" />

OK! I appologize! Don't want to sound tooo inapropriate. I for one never saw your invite as a proposition, but I could see how others would think that it was.

OK ! Forget the flaming DR. Peppers. You gotta try a Nutty Irishman! I think you would appreciate it a little more!(Good for sippin at the pool side) <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" />

I found out tonight that Grandma is moving real soon.(perhaps within the next month or so) So I may be going back to my own town sooner than expected. And if W can't start providing income, I may just have to go back home.

I realy don't want to have to do that, but my choices are pretty limitted.

And if the song that you are refering to that you love is the same that I am thinking of, Yes you will be OK because he is watching over you!

WIWH

WIWH,

What's going on with your move?

What's happening now?

My only "update" is that I feel a sense of purpose that what I am "testing the waters" on is A-ok and right for me.

It's my town, and it feels right to me... like "Go ahead and buy the house"... is how I feel inside.

I have some action steps to take in advance of truly making a final decision.

Right now, I feel a "green light" on the inside.

I'm very thankful, WIWH, you recognize how truly innocent - and nearly revirginized - I really am!

lol


Talk to you later,

Laura

LAura Lee,

Good to see you online.

I just talked to STBX tonight and she actually recommended a few places near home for me to look into.

WIWH,

I know some people will take this wrong - but if she just wants your paycheck - move to Michigan.

You can be my pool guy.

Then she won't have a paycheck... because I'll be paying you in Nutty Irish drinks.

People will say to me, "Who's that guy?"

I'll say, "He's my Nutty Irish pool guy."

lol

Well, you remember WIWH to look out for your interests... cause I know the W's m.o.

She wants to look out for her interests - and have you look out for her interests - and, well, forget WIWH's interests.

So, remember to take care of those kids - but take care of yourself too... and the W sounds like the kind of person who will learn to consider your interests - only as you do.

Well, until she becomes "potty trained" that is.

<img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" />

Glad to see you on line, too.

I've been working tonite to delete old posts.

I'm about done.

I've been busier at work - which is good.

Need income to buy a house, you know!

Talk to you later,

Laura

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Thanks, I needed that <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" /> <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" /> <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" />