oh maddie, i feel for you. this is such a hard situation to be in. i know those feelings, torn between your christian values and morals and the feelings of hate etc at the whole situation. i feel bad that i couldn't accept this child. and guilty because i am actually glad my H doesn't want anything to do with the OC. glad you found your way here. we will help you out. come here to vent, and help us too. we all help eachother. and there are some other texans out there too.<P>i am just a hopeful future texan. hope to relocate soon. i want to be far away from here and the OW/OC. talk to ya later.<P>happy_girl