Hi Chris,

Thanks for checking in on me. I know I need to finish this letter. I thought I was ready to leave two weekends ago but didn't. I had it all planned. I will but am not quite ready. I need to finish this letter because I am sure I will need it soon. I somehow feel husband will break the boundary I have set.

Chris,

What do you think now.


Dear husband,

It is with the greatest pain that I sit here and write this letter to you. I have grown to develop a strong love for you. I love the way you care about us as a family. I would be very hurt to be without your love.

I have made many mistakes in the last 3 years and while I cannot change them or take any of them back, I have learned from them. I have expressed over and over to you my deep sorrow and regret for cheating on you while you were in prison. I have learned that I need to treat other men like an addiction and stay away from them.

The path that I must take now is not one of choice but one of self-preservation. Since the day I discovered your affair, I have waited patiently for you to end your relationship with Other Woman. The pain and emptiness that I endure on a daily basis is almost too much to bear. I'm afraid that my emotional connection to you is lessening and my love for you is slipping away. In order to protect the love that I feel for you, I believe it would be best for us not to have contact. I cannot continue to see or talk with you while you talk to OW on an almost daily basis. When you are willing to completely and permanently end your relationship with OW other than pickup and drop-off of your daughter, I will be ready and willing to discuss our future together. Until then, any communications between us will be handled through your step-mom or sister. I will be ready and willing to discuss our future together when you end your affair.


I know it is possible to get through this. We can discuss a plan to renew the love you and I both know was once so strong. I am willing to do whatever it takes to correct the mistakes that we have made in the past and make our marriage together stronger and closer than we ever thought possible. I want to be the one you turn to when you need anything. I have faith in our love that it is strong enough to conquer our unfaithfulness to each other. I will wait for you because my love for you has grown strong in spite of our mistakes.

I love you WS,
ME

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