Wondering...my heart goes out to you. This mess is so hard, I can't imagine having a child of my own to worry about too. I would do everything you can to protect your child. Especially because you seem like you are on the fence about how you feel about your H. For me, I love mine and knew he loved me and he has been working very hard this year to heal the damage. While he's not perfect and there are still many, many issues related to the hurt, the betrayal and the financial impact, he keeps trying. So, even with a complete turnaround (almost, my dh is ADHD so we have a lot of loose ends still....more life insurance to cover the support, an updated will to exclude the OC...etc) this is still an issue. If your H is not doing all that he can, then this issue will loom large.

I'm praying for you!

Hugs,
Lori

Thanks Lori <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" />
I guess I am sorta on the fence. I mean, I feel like he is trying but we don't talk about "it" because I am afraid it will end as it always does (with him getting mad and storming out.) Plus he still has some maturity issues he has yet to deal with, including this get-a-job-then-get-fired/quit because of whatever stupid reasons he comes up with. All who know me and my situation say LEAVE HIM but I guess I am not ready to let go. I DO feel like I should get the divorce only to protect myself and my son. I spoke with a lawyer Friday (H does not know as I said earlier we have not had a serious conversation in weeks...) and the lawyer said I should cover myself and sever all legal ties to my H even if we don't really split up. The D should be quick and cheap as long as no one argues...
Anyways, I am babbling... <img border="0" alt="[Teary]" title="" src="graemlins/teary.gif" />